I wrote this when i was in a bad time, i just found it and thought i might as well post it for summin to do:
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With you my heart stays, forever and always,
You may not want it, but I want you to keep it,
I dont know why, I just feel it would be safer with you,
Its broken and destroyed, but In time, when im gone,
It will remind you, Remind you that i love you,
That i was willing to hurt, Just to prove that.
You may throw it away, but then I'll see,
I'll see...That I meant Nothing to you,
That you only played me, Like the fool I am,
I'll see that what they said was true,
That I should just get over you,
But thats easier said then done.
My life feels so incomplete, when your not in it,
But I have to smile, prove that im still willing,
Willing to do whatever it take to prove myself,
I know i wasn't good to you, I know i deserve this pain,
Even if you hate me, I will still be there for you,
Use and Abuse me if that makes you happy.
Just so I know you still care in your own way,
You say you Love me, I believe it,
You know I do, You use that to your advantage,
I hate it...But i love it as well...
I love the closeness, even if you dont,
I love the feel of your breath on my neck when we sleep,
I love the warmth, how it makes me feel oh so safe,
I miss you being by myside,
I miss the feeling of my fingers entwind in yours,
I miss hearing you say, I Love you.
Those words still haunt my mind,
My dreams are pleagued with thoughts,
Thoughts that i cant bare,
I just want to see you happy,
But it hurts to see you with someone else.
When your with another girl,
My heart feels like it being torn apart,
I feel like im just...Wasting away,
But the thing is, I know I care for you,
These feelings prove it, I never felt like it before.
Your on my mind everyday, I hope you dont mind,
Everything reminds me off you,
The songs, the sents, the times I cry alone...
Even the lonelyness of my bed, reminds me.
I lost the will to want to live, long ago,
But hearing your voice, helps me,
It helps me carry on,
Your more then a phase.
Your allot more then that,
I know this because when your sad,
My mood shifts into depression,
I just want to help, I want to make things right.
I just wish I had the chance again,
The chance to call you my own,
A chance to prove you mean so much to me,
How much I love you...
Im trying to change, I truely am,
Its hard to, Ive been like this for so long,
But for you to see I care, Im willing to do it,
I'll try as much as it takes, to get me the way you want me.
