Urgent: Somebody...I need to talk

[x]

Yeah, I noticed I was lurking like a chinchilla out of hell. Shut  up. Truth is, you guys are just too lovely to stay away from.............not. You know I love ya'll but there is one reason and one reason alone I am doing this right now...I am desperate. I have no-one to talk to right now...my bf has been very sporadic with talking to me (idk why because we haven't had a long enough chance to really talk lately...his mother likes to kick him off the computer?) and i can't reach his phone number. I would reach  out to my online buddies...but oh yeah...I told off all my friends for being the sext-hungry jerks they were and they won't answer my messages. Wonder why. I would post on yahoo answers or something similar but....my family knows everything I do on yahoo! This...what I REALLY REALLY need help with...is nothing I can tell my family or close peers. Heck, I wonder if I could tell my bf given the rare chance.  To get to the point, I'm facing a lot of mental trauma right now. I feel like I'm unraveling. Honey, I could tell you things, daydreams of mine, that would make you want to hide in the closet. I don't want to act upon...any of this horror flashing through my head. I don't want to see the blood, I don't want to create ruin and pain. I want to make the darkness stop before it swallows me. Please. I need to tell someone what's going on with me without causing a scene. Privately would be best but posting is fine. Please somebody help me!!!! I know, being Sasha, that I joke a lot, but this is dead serious. Please please post if you are willing to hear out the horror and help me. 

[Ares the Ram]

I too am wrestling with demons now. I will listen to you Sasha, and help with what I can. Its ok to talk to us.

[x]

thank you very much. i wish i could help you with your rants, but i really don't think I'm the sort of person ANYONE would want to ask for advice from. T.T

[MinxKitty]

We all go through times when we feel we need someone to talk to!! Private message me whenever you want, I always have my phone on my bar when I'm working, so you'll always get an answer within a few hours if not sooner!!
Don't give up hope
Xox

[Puncia]

There is always help, always someone that will care and listen. Always a way to get better. The real problem is to find the right way. I second Minx:

Don't give up hope

[x]

Thank you, both of you. Very glad that I have this support. Though it isn't as much of an emergency, maybe I will go ahead and message anyway, if it's okay...the more I talk the less freaked out I am, usually.

[KittKat chunky~]

Aw, Sasha... I hope things clear up for you. Nobody should have to go through stuff like this    ... If you need to, I'm always willing to listen and help in any way I can. 

[x]

very much appreciated Kitt. i know i can always count on you, you're a good friend. ^-^ i will message.

[MinxKitty]

Whether its an emergency or not, if you feel like talking, message me!! I'm always here to listen and give whatever help and advice I can!!
xox

[Harlequin_Felis]

As an experienced and accredited trauma sponge, I've always got a friendly ear for people with troubles.

[Twice-Bitten]

If you still need someone to talk to I am here as well. I consider myself a good listener

[x]

thanks you guys, if you would like to help me i would gladly appreciate it...but on the other hand i dont want to burden yet more people with my issues unless they're okay with it. I feel bad the more people i tell about it for some reason lol...

[Twice-Bitten]

Well don't tell me if it makes you feel worse the point is to make you feel better, yes?

[x]

lawl of course i just meant that i feel like a jerk the more i spill cause that's all the more people that have to know 'the truth' about sasha when they could've been happy with her facade. BUT I hardly know you and you hardly know me I think, so is it okay with you to talk, given the warning that it's pretty serious stuff? (or serious stuff according to her, not me)

[Twice-Bitten]

Well lay it on me! I like to help!