So recently I have been on the furry forums, and unfortunately my mother walked into my room while I was in the forums. I did not try to hide the tab because there was no time, and it would simply look suspicious. (I did this once with a simple YouTube video and she thought it was porn). Well she asked, " what's a furry" and I said its just a community I am part of. Of course my mom, being the spy mom she is, must have googled it because about a week later in the car she said, "so I heard you are a furry, this worries me because the media tends to look at furries as sexual devieants and overly sexual in general.".
I told her that I did not identify myself with that side if the community, and it in general offends me. She looked slightly skeptical but did not Heston me further. I then asked her if we could go to a furry convention sometime and she looked extremely worried. She said, "I wouldnt really want you to go because I have been doing some research on the Internet, and many websites say the furries and very sexual, and deviant. I am also slightly ashamed that you would identify with such a comunity". I went on to explain to her that I dont identify with this side of the community but she still looked really worried.
What I dont understand is why my mom can't just accept me for who I am. She always is talking about how I need to try to fit in better at school. But I simply don't care what other people think. I am going to be who I am.
My mother said that she would try to keep an open mind about me going to a furry convention but she needed to look into it further. I should have explained to her better what a furry was so she didn't find all of the bad stuff online.
I don't think I will tell my dad for a while because he seems to judge me for being different alot. He wouldn't understand t for sure, and he would just think it is some weird fetish that my son is into.
I also feel a sense of misunderstanding in my life because I am very confused sexually. I feel sexual attraction towards both men and woman, yet I have never told anyone this. I am sure my parents would accept it, but I am sure my two sisters (whom of which I love) would most certainly hate me and spread rumors about me. Not to mention my grandparents simply wouldn't understand. And worst the school I go to is heavily republican so I would get bullied, and all of my friends would never accept me. (just because I might be bisexual, that's how stupid some people are)
I hate how my parents think I need to be perfect at all times. Any mistake I make is terrible, and yet my sisters have LOTS of problems that they try to ignore. They see me as little mr. Perfect and I am not allowed to make any mistakes or be different. Maybe it is because I do well in school, and am intelligent and bright. (4 point honor role student, national scholar etc...).
I am so confused and I don't have anyone to talk to who would understand me. Maybe I will talk to my mom about this because she is very understanding and loving so she would accept it.
Thank you all, and sorry for any misspellings (typed on an iPad)
