Is this depression?

[NyxTheJaguar]

I don't know what's with me. Ever since school started I've noticed something... different. I don't feel as motivated to do schoolwork, and at one point, for about two months, I didn't even want to do ART. But the main thing is the guilt and self hate. Everything I say, every time I talk to someone, I feel like I did something wrong. I call myself names, I tell myself that I ruined their day. I feel guilty about everything, and I feel like a burden. I feel like everyone thinks I'm annoying and that I'm just a nuisance. I snap at my mom constantly.

I do have Aspergers and anxiety, so I thought maybe it's that. But someone I talked to suggested to me that I might be depressed. I don't know...... to me it doesn't sound like it. And YES, I know that a forum does not equal proffessional help. I just want some perspective. 

Thanks for any advice

[Obey138 (Matthew "Fluffy")]

It might be. At least is sounds like it.
Ask a professional anyway.

[Traum]

I doubt you have any kind of metal illness tbh.

[anoni]

Metal illnesses would be rather strange xD

I can't diagnose you and no one else can, so it's better to be checked up. You could have anxiety but I dunno, I'm not a psychologist and neither is anyone else on here.

[FriendlyFern]

I have dealt with depression for a long time and that definitely sounds like it could be depression. It's obvious you have low self-estee, and if severe enough, it can lead to depression. Of course, I'm no doctor, so if you want to know for sure try to get some counseling.

[Keinai]

It sounds like you have the textbook definition (not motivated to do schoolwork or things you enjoy, feelings of self-worthlessness and thinking you're always doing wrong). These things do all come into play but everyone's experience of depression is different, do to everyone's brain and situation is different.

[NyxTheJaguar]

Thank you to all of you for replying 

I am going to go to a professional, no worries I just kind of wanted some perspective from others, so thank you! 

[Traum]

I can assure you a good doctor will say you're sick and put you on meds. And how is he suppose to check you up? Will he measure blood pressure or something? Diagnosis will be very subjective in any way.

[Alonzorion]

I recall feeling that way a lot between when I was 13 and 18, it took me that long to actually talk to someone about it and it took a year longer for me to see a professional who helped. I hope you'll be okay, I'm glad you're able to open up about it.

[Halei-Helai]

Honestly it sounds like a textbook case, sad to say. However, you are doing a very good thing in getting somebody to talk with. Even if it isn't depression, they might be able to help you by just giving you an opportunity to talk, and they shouldn't start rattling off diagnoses right away. If you have good rapport with the person then they can be very helpful.

I wish you luck. Feel free to send a PM if you think it might be helpful, or if you just want to talk

[Candy Bear]

When you go see your Doctor, ask if they have a behavioral specialist on staff. A Doctor will just give you different types of medication and hope one of them works (not all the time but most of the time). Ask for a behavioral specialist, they are somewhat like a therapist. He/she will talk to you at length before even attempting to put you on medication, at least that is from my experience. I've been through different doctor changes, it wasn't till I got a behavioral specialist that I felt like someone was going to listen to me, have an actual conversation, before giving me some medication. If you are really worried, go seek help. When I was 19 I got married and moved many states away from my family and friends, I was a little depressed. Then I got a blood infection, which led to A LOT of health issues and I had no one at that point (my husband gone on deployments). I went through many Doctors about my depression. My light depressive issues eventually turned into manic episodes, crippling anxiety and angry outbursts.
*Now I'm not saying this is going to happen to you, I've worked with nurses and dealt with Doctors for my job and then i was dealing with them for personal health reasons. So I'm not just pulling stuff outta my butt. You talk to your doctor, if this doctor starts handing you all sorts of drugs without listening to you or he/she tries to tell you this is how it is when it's not working out for you, that's a red flag, ask for a different doctor or a behavior specialist.

-It's your body, it's your mental health. If you aren't comfortable with the drugs you have been given or how your Doctor is treating you, get someone else (a specialist).- 

Also, you are welcome to PM me I used to work on a mental health ward as a Lead Aide, mostly Dementia/Alzheimer's Disease  but we still got our other types of patients. Then dealing with my own mental health. I has the coping advice! 
And that's my two cents 

[VoodooMax]

It might very well be depression. I have depression and it sounds to me that you have some of the symptoms of depression. If you would like to talk about it, don't be afraid to ask.

[Grovygrunge]

I have my doubts that it's actually clinical depression. That is caused by lack of certain neurotransmitters, specifically serotonin, which makes you happy, and dopamine, which is responsible for motivation and rewarding you for doing stuff right and such. This causes you to feel happy less than the average person and also feel less motivated.


The reason I doubt that you may have clinical depression is that, from what I can tell, you've developed this, not had it all your life. Of course, I'm only an A level psychology student so I don't know everything so it may be able to develop.


Guess all I can say is what everyone else has said, go and see a professional, find out for sure if that's hat's up or if it's something else then get the help you need.