Leaving my old life behind, and start a new one

[Sagastrina]

Hi,


i started this post 4 times, and i realized, that i can't do this with joy, because i was scared like hell.


Me, and some of my furry friends  want to move aboard. We want to leave our country, because our situation is almost hopeless. my is wrong than hopeless. I have nothing. probably i'm good with housekeeping, cooking... but really. That can do every 2. people in the world.


Before i started thinking on this, i believed that i was good in something. if i try, I can do everything, and i will become someone, wo can manage his life. And now look at me. I Stay in the new threshold of life and i need to realize, that i have nothing to start with. absolutely nothing. my friends do. But i...
And i can now do nothing. i can't. Because my personality is almost antisocial, and quiet.
If we go, then i will be just a charge for them.


So Im not happy. and i dont know what to do. Staying? Going?
Each situation, is bad for me. I decided to go, because my boyfriends goes too. but i really don't know. I don't want hold him back. But without him.. there is really only nothing.


I want to ask your opinion about this and if someone is from australia and want a new friend... but yeah. friendships didn't start like this But i don't know how to start... I try but for me it's hard. x.X

[Ares the Ram]

if it wasn't hard, it wouldn't be worth it.
You've got friends, and they've got your back along the way. If there really is nothing for you at the first place, then yeah go ahead and try a new place. Stick with your friends and do your best. That's all anyone can ever ask of you

[Sagastrina]

I have this feeling.. That i can do nothing and etc.. and my english is bad too.  Its harder to find work out therewith these conditions. X.X

[Tron Cat]

I have a simple philosophy. Fill what is empty and empty what is field and scratch where it itches. 
That said I can see you ate in a very tough situation but the best thing about life is no mater what it goes on.
When you think life has nothing left for here is a test you can do to find out. If your alive isn't not.

[TechRoo]

I have this feeling.. That i can do nothing and etc.. and my english is bad too.  Its harder to find work out therewith these conditions. X.X

Everyone has there strengths and weaknesses, just a matter of finding what you like to do/learn. Everything can be learned at the end of the day  . And your english isn,t that bad, after all we are able to understand what you are are trying to say.


I don't know you're situation, but i like to believe friends and family are more important than wealth/income and possessions.
How tough the situation may be (and I've also hit rock bottom in the past), its friends and family that make me happy...

[Sagastrina]

[size=78%]I don't know you're situation, but i like to believe friends and family are more important than wealth/income and possessions.[/size]
How tough the situation may be (and I've also hit rock bottom in the past), its friends and family that make me happy...

I don't know how to handle my family. MY brother in the past just used me... and i'm naive person full with big heart. So i alwas give him what he wanted.... (and when my mother died, I wanted to change this. So i moved away. leaved the city and start a new life with my boyfriend 270km away )
My father calls me different names, and thinking that i'm a money orientated bitch just like my mother.
and of couse, they hate my mate.


So no. I have family. Yeah. But i Can't expect them.
I know probably i see wrong. But I'm 24 and tired and give up the hope to change this.


When i first decide to leave everithing behind, I was full f hopes and power. In this time i feel that i'am alone with my problems. I'm tired, and hopeless. and i just don't see the "it will be better!" lights anywhere.


i thought i'm a little depressive. :DDD
I know i must make things better. but right now. i have no power for doing this.
 

[Rasui]

Well to me your all ready taken the first step as confessing about it, To me that is a vary big first step.
As well i can kinda understand what you going through as few years back i did something bit similar.
But cause of my friends my real friend that stick with me i was not that afraid.
Your road will be long and its going to be hard i will amite to that. But i will say one thing.
Never regret what you choose to do. for every step you leave behind the more you make by far..

I hope that was bit helpful. 

[Sagastrina]

Never regret what you choose to do. for every step you leave behind the more you make by far..

I never regreted my choices. I just.... was never this "weak".




it's like when the rich need to live like homless... and a homless become rich... They cant handle the situation they know just how to live homelss/rich life. Probably they will learn... with time.
Probably, i say this the wrong way, but i hope the message got trough.
i just feel, that i1m in this situation.

[Rasui]

oh..ok.
I'm know that to make your self stronger you only need your friends..
and needing people to listen.. i am sure every thing will work out fine..
If you needing get anything off your mind i be more than willing to listen. I do that for all my friends
and anyone else who is willing to