I feel like im alone like im the only furry on the planet
You are not. You know this, and repeating in your mind that you are will only make things worse.
when im here i know its not true but when im at school I feel alone and it kills me.
Believe me, you're not the only one to be lonely at school. Not the only one that has no fur schoolmates either. Just have a look at
this thread and see how many are in the same position as you are.
Hell, I'm the only furry that I know of in my county. Indeed. I've searched forums, sites, everything. It seems like the next furry I know of is over 600 miles away. And yet, I take it easy.
i tired to change but I cant its what I am I love being a furry.
There is absolutely no reason to change as long as you're not damaging yourself or those around. Simply being in the fur fandom does not do this. Don't worry about it.
I never cry but this kills me I cant helpbut to go to the bathroom and cry but on my way **censor** pricks call me a furfag all i want to do is yell **censor** off but I cant.
Aggressive and mindless responses will only "feed the trolls". Remember that no matter what situation, being angry will never be the answer when it comes bullying. My BEST advice is to simply ignore it. Completely. Totally. Don't even as much as look or BREATHE in their general direction. Mentally you should laugh at their miserable attempts and ignorance. But don't laugh at them. Just take comfort in the fact that you're better and you won't let them have the pleasure of seeing your reaction.
can anyone tell me how to deal with this feeling of lonliness its literally killing me im sad, tired, and angry all the time
Loneliness is a hard thing to deal with. Especially as a teenager (assuming you are) when genetics, hormones and the general public wants you to seek like minded people to socialize with. I understand that you want to hang with, talk to and have fun with other furries. Catch a movie, go to the mall and such. Though thankfully you can talk to other furries and share things online in the meantime.
Though does the fact that there are no furries around you, make you lonely? No. It doesn't have to. Your friends don't have to be furry to be fun. And as you grow older, the people you surround yourself with will be more open minded and able to understand what a furry is without misjudging you, so you'll be able to actually talk about fur stuff even though they are not furries.
I seriously doubt that the loneliness is "literally killing you", for if that was the case, there would be a ton of people dying daily due to loneliness. It's a bad feeling, but it won't hurt you. You just need to face the fact that you might not have a bunch of furries to hang with at the moment, take each day as it comes and stop being so negative. Accept, adapt, get happier. And if you are happier, the days will be brighter and maybe you'll be lucky and find someone? You certainly won't get any new friends if you're moping around.