My darkness

[Ben]

I'll consider it 

[Ben]

I think it all started when I met you
Scared of what we could've been
I didn't know what to do
So I ran


But I couldn't leave you
So I came back for round two
Don't know why


But again
I hurt you


I said sorry and that's the last I ever spoke to you.

[Ben]

Sitting with this gun against my head
Finger itching,
Trigger twitching,


Bang....




But I’m still not dead

[Ben]

lies told me they’d help me
All they’ve done is kill me
Kill me


Please...

[Ben]

Just know
You’re not alone...


You never have been.

[Ben]

I miss you
But words won’t bring you back
All they’ve done is driven me mad


Drinking to get you out of my head


But you’re gone and I’ll never get you back
I want you so bad

[Ben]

Breath in
Smoke filling my lungs
Forgot the point of the song that was ringing in my head
It’s gone now
So this poem is dead
 

[White Wolf Guardian]

This poem is solemn, but I like that it is somewhat calming.

[Ben]

Is there even a point in trying to hide

If you saw me you'd probably be surprised to see I haven't di_

Tied the rope to end my own life......



it's kinda sad that this is all that runs through my head
Thoughts of suicide leaving all behind to
Wish I did more with the life I took in my own hands

But that's over now
Now I'm a different man
Honestly, I'm over feeling dread

Somebody cured me
but I don't remember
When
How
Who,
Saved me from that cursed land of fire and hatred

Maybe it was me
pushing positive thoughts through my head

I'd like to thank my subconscious....
Otherwise



I'd be dead.

[Ben]

Thank you,
All of you,
You really mean a lot to me,
Without you I don't know where I'd be,
The voices finally set me free
I'M FREE!



I'm free



Holy shit I'm free......

[Ben]

My mind sings to me
It’s a sweet song
But I may never sing along
For when I go to sing the whole thing
Slllllipppsssss away
Fades back into the dark bedroom
Eyes wide and mind foggy
I had a dream of a place
I opened the grand gates up wide
And I found
Nothing but a mirror and I just
Just
Just
Woke up

[Ben]

This, I write to my future self,

In the future
I hope I make something of myself

A spectacular feeling creeps through

Your bones.
My
My bones it’s warm like the warmth of
Bourbon I guzzled down when I was Young minded and

Damn I lost this one.

[Trixsie Vixen]

Good to see you still writing Ben ol' buddy!
*hugs*