As of today, he left us alone, abandoning us to our haunts as he pursued the notion of a job. And I lie here, cold and alone, wishing he'd caress my cheek with velvet hands and whisper all the endearments I have been deprived of. But this cannot be, as I have seen, and I accept that with a cold heart and harsh tones. His words no longer scar me, on the outside it is of no consequence. Inside, the scars rip open the skin healed around my heart and bleed black and red. I cannot be alive for what he's done... The pain he's wrought, the anger he caused to breed inside..
A friend has found me and she was all alone herself. Together we explored the life we consider meaningless, ignorant of our actions. As we ran and played, a dark descended and soon it began to rain, driving us inside. We huddled up, sad once more at the thought of leaving each other. She has been my best friend all my life it seems and I would hate to lose her but I know to fully and truly love someone/something, you must let it go. So thus I have, watching her grow fuller and prettier than I could ever be and I smile, loving her more and more for being herself.
The notion of being accepted is foreign, an indifferent untouchable feeling I will not be able to grasp. Though it pains me a bit, I just don't seem to care anymore. As my mates have told me, "You're more heartless than I could ever believe capable. Your thoughts are colder than ice and your smile makes me cringe." I have lost the feeling of warmth and the sun is only a dying star to me. When the day comes that I must meet Him, I agree wholeheartedly that I was cold and utterly heartless to my kin. I deserve every punishment he deems proper...