Lately, some friends of mine have been talking about sexuality and sexual preferences and whatnot. A lot of my friends identify as being bisexual, and I even made a friend recently who says he's pansexual. And I've been thinking: What am I?
I've dated two girls, and I'm not straight, fooled around with one guy, and I know I'm not gay, I don't have a preference for either boys or girls, but I'm not bisexual. I don't have a word for it... I just don't feel attracted to anybody. Is this normal? I wonder about it a lot lately. I don't know why; the only thing I can chalk it up to is that I want a way to identify myself. I know I'm an artist, a son, a student; but I've never had a word for my sexuality. Or lack thereof.
Also, I want to be more assertive. It's pretty easy to say things online, I can get pretty wordy, but in real life, I barely talk. Even when I'm around my friends, I barely put a word in. I like being in the background of things, and going with the flow, but I get a lot of flack from my classmates about not talking. They ask me why I don't, and I get embarrassed, so I just don't reply, and then they think I'm being rude, so they bother me. I want to say "I don't talk because I don't want to", but I don't want to be mean, so I just sit there with my head down.
I want a way to tell people to leave me be, but I don't want to be rude about it. I'd like it if I could be more talkative, I love making new friends, but I don't know how to be not shy. I've had the same five friends since I was in fifth/sixth grade and I'm sixteen now. I think it's time for me to branch out. So how can I do this? Advice would be appreciated.