Author Topic: Just yuck. (Read 516 times)

Kodachi Devil · « **on:** April 20, 2011, 07:14:00 PM »

I'm getting really annoyed with myself. Thats really all I can say. I can't control my feelings, and i wish i could just stop everything. I have to say this all started about a year ago and is just getting worse. I had the love of my life, and honestly the only person i think i could ever love and I left him cause i thought i wasnt good enough and then i got roped in with that stupid...older man that ive mentioned before. And this morning when i found out i was just a quickie for someone cause he was bored with his boyfriend i just got with all this. I feel like a slut, pardon my language. And even though i never did anything for real...Sstill. And my parents are giving me eheat again about stuff that never yappened and my mom has told me im worthless and shes ashamed of me and i just want to curl up in a ball and die or something.

x · « **Reply #1 on:** April 20, 2011, 07:18:29 PM »

maybe you feel this way because you're getting too worked up about your emotions. I'm not saying it isn't okay to feel upset, just saying that sometimes things go wrong or are horrible, and when you get worked up, you feel them worse and start spinning off, making things worse. Sometimes it is better to try and forget the stupid, bad things.

Kodachi Devil · « **Reply #2 on:** April 20, 2011, 07:19:36 PM »

Stupid phone

anyways thats the thing. And at school too i dont know how to act around people. Honestly I trip on my words and end up saying the stupidist things. I used to be so confident in myself but ever since last year ive just been getting worse and worse and worse. I dont want to feel like this anymore. And about the boy from before, i told him how i feel and stuff but i suppose its my own fault. He moved on. I feel like no one really wants me unless its just to cheat on their mates with me!! It happened twicre without my knowledge...other times i declined the offers...

WingedZephyr · « **Reply #3 on:** April 20, 2011, 09:01:44 PM »

I'd consider swearing off online relationships if I were you. Or at least don't get involved until you could meet up with them in RL. It works for some people, but not everyone.