I've never had a lot of self confidence, at times I even feel like people I call my friends, just barely put up with me. I perceive myself to be some sort of nuisance, not even worth hating just like a pest you can just about tolerate before eventually you're done tolerating after so long. I'm starting to feel like people are actually seeing me this way. I don't even know why I feel like this...I just do...I hate it...I wish I could stop it but I just can't get rid of the feeling in the back of my mind.