So I'm not allowed to vent on this forum?

[asterisk]

I'm going through a lot of pain right now, and nobody seems to give two **censor** shits about it... even the people who I pay to care don't care. If words like "suicide" are so "triggering" to all of you, why don't you just change the site's name to **censor** Tumblr or some shit? I can't deal with this anymore. I have nobody and nothing and not even God on my side. I'm a hopeless lost cause. I'm done.

[MrRazot]

From a moderation standpoint, we remove posts in relation to suicide for one very good simple reason. No one here is capable of helping you, only giving advice which could go either way.

If you're feeling suicidal, please contact a suicide help line where you can talk to people who help people like you every day.

There is a way through this, just for your own safety, do the sensible thing and seek help from professionals.

[anoni]

Basically what Razot said.

Suicide is a very serious thing, and can lead to some very serious consequences for everyone. The people on this forum, including myself and almost anyone who posts on here, are not qualified to help on such serious matters, some people who frequent this forum are as young as 13. This forum is not the place where you can get proper help, even if we like to think that we're all friends here and that we all look out for each other, if someone is seriously considering suicide, it's a different matter.

  The suicide PM that is sent out to any person who has had their posts removed (without any % given) contains many links to many resources both US based and international based for people contemplating suicide. I suggest you use them if you are truly contemplating anything as these have been known to help and you'd be dealing with actual professionals who are actually trained and prepared to deal with these matters.

[asterisk]

I tried calling the hotline once and they cursed me out. Didn't help at all.

[HollowOfHaze]

Sounds like you called the wrong hotline.