I'm just a fur who wants someone to bond with.
I wonder what I've done to deserve chronic loneliness..?
To begin my vent... my one and only true friend, whom I cared and considered as my best friend, is no longer a true or best friend of mine anymore. I feel devastated and even isolated than ever.
So, where did things go wrong...
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I am a nineteen years-old fur baby-blue fox. Despite my age, I am extremely socially awkward. Never had a single best friend ever since, but I've always wanted one. Dearly.
I will not name, but I met a fellow furry bud back last September. He and I got along, first with PC gaming, but I lost interest in all sectors of gaming, and fully turned my focus onto cartooning and animating that I was far more motivated into. He strangely followed me into my agenda, and continued to be by my side.
Then that month and the next month, I faced one of the darkest blackholes of my life, and I felt life-and-death situation daily back then. I had no hope.. but this dude was there for me. He was by my side, and I relied on him, and he was amazingly supportive of me in my darkest pain. I cannot thank him enough to help me go through.
But, that friend of mine is no longer the same as he used to be. My best friend began shrinking his interest, and spent less time chatting together. I was and still is somewhat confused on why this is happening, but regardless, I am heartbroken for almost over a month now.
I faced another paranoia attack back due to the fact that my crush has become uncontactable, and my vent to him was met with almost no interest, and he instead played Warframe with his other gaming buddies and didn't bother to respond. Yet, he still justifies on why he was so careless (his words, not mine) by saying that he just didn't care... I barely managed to escape the emotional wreck without his help... with his attitude still being similar however, I realized I can't continue my relationship with him.
Despite that disastrous turn, I still managed to confess to him that I considered him as my bestie.
He responded that he didn't feel the same back.
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I've been feeling extremely lonely for the past month constantly... I wonder if there is any fur out there who I could get along with..? I hope there is.. please DM...
I'm willing to start a new page..