So I'm a major prankster at my school. I have a well known history of coming up with ridiculous costumes to cause a scene with and generate some lulz. I guess you could say I'm kind of popular at my school. It's not a bad life - really fun, actually. Anyways, I had one of my best buddies over this weekend and decided to test the fursuit waters. I said something like, "So, I'm thinking about getting a fursuit - just to mess with people". Wow, you wouldn't believe what a conversation stopper that was. I know that I should be able to come out to my best bud, but after covering up for that pothole, I decided against it. For now, anyways...
I really want to get full-bore into this - but I'm a wuss, to be blatant. I know my buddies - they're all good people. But they are ALL very weak when it comes to holding their own. Most of them are sheeple to the opinions of society, and wouldn't dare to oppose the popular vote. I know their opinions of furries too, and it's bad to the extreme. I get the feeling I know what would happen if I told them all, and I'd prefer to avoid being ostracized.
I know it's hypocritical to call my friends sheeple when I can't even work up the nerve to express MYSELF, but these guys have been my friends for 8 years or more - I'm just afraid of losing them. Funny that the guy that walks around in a hotdog suit or surfs down stairways can't work up the nerve to sport a tail to school, huh?
I might just have to force myself to strap on a tail and unwillingly come out. We'll see how it goes. I may just keep to myself 'till college - again, we'll see.
I'm just letting off a little steam - I'm kinda pissed at myself, that's all. It's not that big of a deal, just a thorn in my side I wanted to pluck out. It's always nice to talk to people that at least know where you're coming from. Thanks, rant forum!