My life can't be more painfull!

[BenoitOWN]

 

Maybe you think that this is not true but it not a  joke.

My life is all up to a little piece of wire.

I had to go throught alot of thing in my childhood and school.

The person i really but really fall in love with broke my heart in 1000 puzzle piece.

I have no friend I can hang out with.

I am let alone and a computer in front of me.

I start to think about bad thing normal people shoud not think.

I even had a car accident the january 8 and wasn't hurt but it didnt turned out like I wanted to.

After that my last person i really enjoy to be with at work go fired and I can't see her anymore since I got nothing to contact.

3 week ago I started to pray Satan to take me up but he didnt actually did that.

 =s

Really strange thing start to happen me when I go to bed now(after 2 week of praying).

And last night was the most scary I had because it keep up for 30 to 40min.

When that ''thing''(since I still aint sure what it is) come well I can hardly move, most of the time I cant talk, noise comming from my bedroom(crack that wasnt there before since I lived there for 7 years), I can hardly breathe at a normal rate, I can have painfull headache, my heart start to beat really fast, it become cold and I feel something.

But last night I actually feel something pressing on my leg and arm like if I was touch and after like 30min something was pressing on my 2 pillow in and out. I jumped out really quick from my bed saying: WHAT THE **censor**!!!!!

 :shcoked:

Can someone actually know what is waiting me next or what I am going throught or what would help to stop those thing happen.

I am sure alot of you will think I am crazy and shoud go to an azile but trust me it really happen! I am scare to go back to bed now.

 :sleepytime:

I can't talk to my parent about those thing since I am sure they won't think it true and I cannot tell them that i wanted to ... ya know.

I don't want comment like:  You are crazy, etc. I really need help at this time!

 :th_PyongLlora:

[Pause]

Heck, the only thing you are feeling is being totally stressed out.  Take a deep breath and take some days off.

[crustybread5]

Heck that sounds just like me. On top of the usual stress and strains of my normal life, I was ill, had exams blah, blah. I just got too stressed out. Started not sleeping, which eventually lead to hallucinations and flash backs. Not nice.

Luckily, after a while after I realized I'd started cracking up, I emailed my councillor. He helped so much. And he still does.

If you go and see your GP, he can put you in touch with help and give you some medication or something to help you sleep.

And also, my parents know nothing of this.  So you're not alone.

[Goblin Cat 😸]

o.o
It seems like I'm heading toward Crusty's road...  omg
*sigh*
Oh well.
 :upupdi3:

[Theridos]

praying to satan won't work. There is no satan and i should know, I'm a satanist. So don't attempt to pray to false gods.

[OtterDreamer]

I know a little of how you feel. All you can do is hang in there, keep your friends close, and your dreams closer. I have learned in this time and age that nothing can prepare you for anyhting life gives you; good or bad, minor or major. Myself, I am still having a hard time in life. Me and my girl friend are just making enough money to keep an apartment, I am thousands of miles form my real home, and I still live decisions that I regret to this day.

Just don't feel like all hope is lost and life is falling all around you. I use to feel like that and that's were I made some bad decisions. I mean I probably lost the respect of some family members on my step-fathers side of the family because I moved to Missouri, and sometimes I regret moving. But worst than that I use to drink, smoke, and god who knows what else to block out reality. Now I have come to realize I have to keep moving.

Just hang in there.

[Goblin Cat 😸]

Quote of the Day: "In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back!"

[balzich14]

your not the only one BenoitOWN with a crappy life, i would tell my story,but it would take too long. :sniffle:

[Rhakshi]

well, stopping preying to satan may help

[Fell]

There are sleep-related psychosomatic things that that could be, but at the moment I'm going to go with depression and stress induced auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations. Which is no laughing matter in its own right too. : /

First things first, stop praying to Satan. Your doing that has gotten your mind on that track, and now your hallucinating. No good there. So cut that out. Additionally, I recommend getting a jar of melatonin to help you sleep until you can get some more outside help. Melatonin isn't a drug, it's a natural extract that makes your body's internal clock hypersensitive to light and dark. It was originally made to help people adjust to new timezones, but I've used it to counter insomnia before and it works like a charm.

Try that out until you can talk to your Guidance Councilor, school psychiatrist or other intelligent adult with a background in psychology. That's the most important thing to do at the moment... Find someone you can talk to who will also be able to help you with your night-visions, stress and depression.

Best of luck...

[BlackwidowX745]

yeh dude ur prolly not getting enough sleep/ ur depressed/ ur really stressed out. this appened to my friend a while bak i suggest just take a few deep breaths and get pn with ur lifr.. make some friends mabey and try getting out
just get some fresh air once ur mind id off of it itll start to go away

[balzich14]

hey, ummm rha were u talking to me or the other dude about preying to satan?

[Rhakshi]

well him, but you shouldn't really do that in the first place ???

[balzich14]

o ok about to say. i hate satan  :boom:

[crustybread5]

I feel this is going to turn into a giant religion flame war.

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