Rants: Everyday Venting

[kivabunny]

its cold rainy and i'm hungry

[Aoren Deringer]

Today I have a two-hour window to complete three exams.
Yes I said three.
-_-

[Draco Vertolgr]

Im tired all the time and the days are getting longer. I feel as if Im getting dumer everyday and things dont seem as they used to.

[Midnight Madness]

I **censor** hate when you have something stuck in your head that makes you extremely uncomfortable and freaked out. It was a scene from AvP Requiem in the hospital with the Predalien, innocent people being impregnated and crap; it scares the hell out of me, not for the fact of the proceedings, but for who it's on.

Completely helpless and innocent people, and they get that horrid death? And then imagining the victim being someone I care about... Ugh, oh my freaking God it scares the hell out of me and make me so damned uncomfortable. Somebody rip the memory out of my head, please? X.=.x;

[Draco Vertolgr]

Watch event horizon tht will get avp out of your mind. Im having a great day but its near impossible to enjoy with my headach:/

[Aoren Deringer]

I get to bum about here until I can procede to 'enjoy' church.
Oh happy day.

[Zae]

Everything just keeps piling up... Ugh, from relationship stuff, school, friends, parents and lots more.. It's getting really overwhelming, I'm having a harder time actually staying -happy.- I'm usually now just plain sad or neutral really. I always say I'm fine, everything's good, I'm all right, but I'm beginning to doubt myself, even. I get annoyed really easily, and end up hurting the ones I love, friends and family... and after I realize I have hurt someone else, or said something stupid, I start bashing myself and begin to feel even worse.. I get frustrated easily, and feel like giving up.. I have no motivation to do really -anything..- I tried drawing earlier, cuz i wanted to vent, but I had nothing.. every thing I started to draw i felt looked horrible. I'm seriously just thinking of ditching my art for a while, take a break. Now, I guess I'll list specific things I think have been weighing me down...


For one, school. From people stealing my crap, breaking it, etc, being loud and obnoxious, disrespecting teachers and fellow classmates, bullying, and down right idiocy. The guys in my class are idiots, and take every chance they find to pick on each other, the girls in my class, myself, and the teachers. Heck, they're a funny group, but I hate their guts by times. Not to mention, exams start on the 11th next month. And in english, we have tons of homework. We're reading a novel, answering questions on every chapter, doing definitions from the chapters, reading poems from a textbook, answering questions on -THOSE- AND doing an autobiography all at the same time. I. Hate. My. English. Teacher.


Now, my dad. He's usually on my case, asking me to go outside and work nearly every day, and saying I don't help around the house enough, and that I should hang with my friends more, and how I spend too much time on the machines (IPod, computer, xbox) etc. But, I was lucky enough to have him go out west to work, so he isn't home. I thought I was free. Oh was i wrong. He called the other day, and when he asked to talk to me, he bugged me about a mistake I made earlier that my mom must have told him about, he asked if my room was clean, if I was helping my mom, telling me I should go hang with friends... Wtf... We didn't even really have a casual convo, he was on my case the entire time.


Relationship issue things. x.-.x Arguments, large and small. I snap at him, he gets angry, and yeah... I get annoyed waaaay to easily... it's really screwing things up for me.. *sighs* Lots of stupid stuff lately...

I think that almost covers it all... I feel I've missed something but meh.. if I did I can post another rant I guess..

[Midnight Madness]

...;.=.; Shuishe...

[Draco Vertolgr]

ERROR 37 I CURSE THY NAME! FOR ART THOU TO RUIN DIABLO TIME OR RUIN DIABLO ITS SELF! >:0 by this message its obvious I have nothing better to complain about lol

[Midnight Madness]

**censor**... This has probably been the absolute hardest few days of my life... After my parents' divorce, but still. I becalmed Shuishe last night and this morning, though she still isn't exactly overly excited, she's much better; but in the whole of striving for this, it has taken an emotional toll on this dragon. I'm just okay, and nothing special. My grandma ended up with a pinched nerve or something in her wrist and was unable to do what was needed, so I stayed home to help her. And to add to the amount of bad luck, Shuishe made a choice to miss school and ended up losing internet privileges for the day; she snuck it for a little, just to let me know how she was (she was having a serious migrane but was emotionally recovered, thank God... X.=.x) and that she was not allowed on and such. But I told her to stay off like her mother wished of her, even despite the obvious consequence. And I also asked her to put some kind of apology forward with her mom. (Hoping she did do it.) Then Odin (my little angelic-yet-demonic dog) decided to be an ass and try to bite some poor delivery boy this morning, always fun. So I can firmly say I'm beyond glad today is over with.

But I owe Taluns a major thank you, and an awesome Sytex hug. (People have actually offered to pay me for my hugs. O.=.o) She really helped me cheer up this morning, and chatted with me through the day. She really helped me out, and I owe her a whole bunch for that. I also spent my whole damn day perfecting my Argonian self in Skyrim, and I enjoyed that too. Though I've had a craving to play Pokemon Xd Gale of Darkness too. I am now off to bed, hopefully dream and waste the remainder of this time without my dragoness... I'll be so happy to see her tomorrow! But hell, I'm still worn down and tired, and a lot of thinking needs to be done. She says I'm fine, perfect even, but perfect isn't good enough; I'm going to improve for her. And I'm going to work to make her happy until that rant she posted here is nothing more than a bad memory. Either way, I'm going to be hella exhausted for a while yet.

[Aoren Deringer]

Time to get a number of arbitrary topics off my chest.
I am constantly worn. By that I mean tired, almost wasted. Even now, almost crippling exhaustion. I feel it constantly.
As some of you may know I, to an extent, hear "voices" or rather to say that I have two voices, both my own (again, to a specific extent) but both different. To the point of being eachothers converse on many topics but in agreeance on others. It's infuriating and the arguments are getting more common. I feel them, each on in a different place. One left, on right, somewhere in the frontal lobe I do believe. Probably just some lunacy on my part, but still... My conciousness is torn.
I no longer desire the company of others, nor indeed do I desire leaving my solitude. I often find solace in my work, but even that is slipping away.
I am tormented by religion. I am an athiest, as is well known, but feign christianity. I do not know why, perhaps out of respect, or fear. I don't know. I truly don't.
I've recently been prone to fit of madness, predicated by migraine headaches (which I usually hide, I do not want those around me to be aware of yet another issue of mine). After which I just loose sight of reason. Don't forget what I was doing, but why, and become somewhat... Destructive. This occurs only rarely, but indeed it does occur.
I find my privacy in a constant state of active violation. I am being watched, and no, this is not a feeling of paranoia. I have been made aware by the person(s) involved that I am under scrutiny.
I find myself unable to focus for long extents of time, just staring blanly at the subject at hand.
I find immense difficulty in expressing ambition or initiative as of late.
I am beginning to loathe and resent those around me,
And now I'm sayng it all online because hell if I won't say one word with any meaning to people's faces.

[WingedZephyr]

Today was just a bad day. 

[NJMike]

All I seem to know in people nowadays is drama, emotional instability and/or childish behavior. Some people also really need to grow up and stop trying to always cause problems for others or over-reacting and complaining about every little thing that happens to them. You make one mistake, and they tend to flip out on it and make you look like some kind of terrorist. I'm sorry to have to break it to you but no one is perfect. Now forgiveness isn't always in question, but seriously, some people really need to grow the hell up and stop acting like little immature whiny babies. You're an adult. So act like one. I really can't stand people like this sometimes.

I'm not trying to be condescending with this; we all need to grow up, and we are all immature in some ways, including myself. But there are some people that are just trapped in little childrens' bodies.

[Midnight Madness]

Two words with a follow up comment.

HIGH SCHOOL. I want better education than what is offered; I don't learn anything practical for my life outside of college prep shit.

[Rinny]

Two words with a follow up comment.

HIGH SCHOOL. I want better education than what is offered; I don't learn anything practical for my life outside of college prep shit.

Aw man, I'm SO happy to be out of High School. Trust me if you're going to college there are no cliques, no drama, nothin'.

As for me, I guess my ac being broken and living in Texas is bothering me. But thankfully it's getting fixed tomorrow. Losing sleep makes me a very sad red panda.