Rants: Everyday Venting

[Ruari]

My social skills are muy mal and I'm trying to make new friends but I'm usually to shy or nervous to say anything  to anyone for example the chat room i was in earlier i said maybe like 2 things and ended up being silent and left. And i get mad at myself for being to nervous to say something.

[Beatnory]

Ruari I have exactly the same problem. I also have difficulty with talking and in the chat it is the same. but I force myself to continue, I don't know if this is a good thing.
do something that you don't like is not fun. but if I don't I'm very angry at myself.

if you ever again on the chat, be free to talk to me. we could always have a pm (of private chat don't know how you call it).
1 to 1 conversation is much better. for both of us

[anoni]

Bah, this is like the worst time to get sick x.x
I've been having an upset tummy for a few days now but I've noticed it's getting worse. If I get sick tomorrow or friday I'll miss an exam and if I get sick saturday or sunday I will go from being in the middle of exams to being sick x.x Bleh, this isn't going to go very well, hopefully it's only something small

[Luke White-Heart]

UGh, I was happy five minutes ago. Now i hate myself.   CURSE THESE TURBULENT EMOTIONS!!!!

[Cifero Windtail]

I'm finally trying to straighten out...


But my parents don't trust me and think that my word means nothing... which I hate because when I give my word, I do my best to follow it through. 




I am gonna prove them wrong SO HARD!!!!




SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..... HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARD!!!

[Jacen]

I hate that I have an overwhelming sense of loneliness. Whenever I get time to think to myself, I start to think about how I have never had any real relationship, and the loneliness starts eating away at me. Normally it isn't that bad, and I can get over it after a bit, but for the past few days it has stuck to me like glue.

[anoni]

I just have this constant feeling that everything is slowly but surely slipping away. Everything seems to be changing, I seem to be doing less, having less of an impact of people and I keep trying to change. Today someone told a mutual friend he didn't really like me, people haven't been as open with me, the relationship between my homertime has changed, the relationship of my clan has changed, I no longer am seen as the awesome guy, and it's annoying, I want that awesome guy reputation back so I blame it all on darkfire.

  I'm have this feeling people are becoming less of friends with me and I also have this feeling it's all my fault. I seem to want to do too much stuff at once, juggle school work, get my clan rep back, get my TFF rep back, get my steam friends rep back, and then I miss out some people, and I miss out something and I feel terrible. Schools taking SO MUCH of my Goddamn time and I hate it and I just don't know what to do. It feels like I seriously can't hold all the things I had anymore, it's like a bunch of spinning disks and now there's too many to cope with...

[Luke White-Heart]

I hate having two aspects of myself. It's the most infuriating thing ever. Everything i do, there are two opinions of it. I know what aspect i want to be, but i don't know how to let it prevail. I know a lot of it has to do with the fact that i don't love myself. I don't know how one would do that without being an egomaniac, but i understand that there is a difference between love and arrogance. But i still don't know how to cross that threshold.

[Alison Marie]

Im extremely frustrated!!! I don't get to go to ten fest with the rest of the people who signed up with the high school to go, which I can deal with, but to top it all off my parents held it against me to get my grades up and then my step sister throws a fit because im not part of the club that sponsors it.. but they lost my slip and now I can't go which my sister thinks I deserve and she didnt have to work for it just like everything else!!! She never does!!!!!! Everything is handed to her wile I work my tail off!!!!! Its ridiculous!! She is in some gifted program and is suposably a genius or prodigy but she is mean to everyone, thinks she is cool when she isn't, and has the adasoty to insult people because she is some god send!!!!! It kills me to see her have everything handed to her!!! She doesn't work for anything ever and she always complanes about the work she think she has to do!!! My parents compare me to her for some stupid reason I can't fathom when we r nothing alike!!!!!

[anoni]

I am just dumbfounded, literally dumbfounded, by the stupidity of some people on GTA4, like honestly, when did GTA4 become a stereotypical call of duty kid haven? So first I go on EFLC and of course there's a hacker who is killing everyone so I go off the server, which is the only server up for some unknown reason, so I have to go to normal GTA4, that's usually fine. I get to normal GTA4 and there's a nice server and then there's another hacker, of course, who says he's a good hacker, I am pretty pissed at hackers at that point so I say, all "good" hackers go bad when they're mad, and I don't understand how you can have fun hacking. So, I'm playing a bit and then the host comes up to me cause I killed some people (it's an FF server and other people were killing other people) and so he goes I'm gonna kick you, and the hacker is apparently friends with this guy, so I get kicked essentially cause I pissed off a hacker on a server (He was like, kick him kick him he's white trash (huh?) and he host was like "oh, ok", great adminship?). Then the hacker starts telling me he's reported me and I'm gonna get banned then starts spamming this copy-paste message saying "LIVE has banned you error code X-05862" cause apparently he'd thought I believe that? Then I go to a different server and I go on and there's this little twat who spams to everyone "kick" "kick" "kick" "kick" and just crap like that, and then I get kicked because this guy spams the chat to kick me cause I shot a wheel of his car?

  GTA4 is a really fun game, it's also a really mature game, with awesome gameplay mechanics, free-roam and just essential fun. It shouldn't be in the horrible state it is now, one person shouldn't be able to take down every single server of the GTA4 network (which has happened about 5 times, someone keeps joining servers and instantly crashing them), it shouldn't be that people are indestructible and can shoot rockets as bullets, it shouldn't be that seemingly the only people that play are russians or 12 year old brats. Why has this beautiful game gotten into this state, it just saddens and angers me.

[pawz9]

Okay so lats year around the time that i joined the fandom i was really depressed to the point i almost killed myself but then i found the furry fandom and a place to vent and so i got less depressed but nowive noticed that im starting to slip back to being depressed and that killing myself is beginning to look good

[FurryJunky]

Sorry to say but Grand theft auto four was released wayback in 2008. The vast majority of people who play games that old would be the hackers, who have an unfair advantage, or little kids that are able to get that game for free.
Another reason why there are so many immature people is because all the mature ones have moved on to new things.
 
Its I guess you could say, The Circle of Game Life.
You first get a big boost in all types of people, mature and immature, The game is also fresh out so there are little to no hackers/modders.
Then there is the phase where other games come out and the one you play loses allot of frequent players, leaving more of the children and a-holes.
And last off there is the dieing phase, where the game becomes outdated and is overran with moders and hackers because of the age of the game.
 
It happines WAY too much, and depending on the game, some phases will happen fast or slow.
Happy upcoming birthday by the way Anoni!

[Bayzan]

Dew claws up if you're the second. Dew claws up if you have a older brother who has his own house et cetera. Dew claws up if you have a little brother who seems to be treated better than you. If you dew clawed up on everyone of these then you must know how I'm currently feeling


Today I wake up and start playing Pokemon, just waiting for the others to wake up. After playing for more than thirty minutes my mom wakes up, so does my little brother. The first thing that she asks me to do is to clean  the dishes cause on Friday it was my turn and I didn't do them, cause I went with my aunt to Best Buy to help her buy,some new speakers. I began to protest, telling her why she couldn't send the little one to do them. It wasn't that much dishes to do anyways. She didn't answer my question and just demanded for me to do them immediately. I say "When he goes and sleeps by our aunt and it's his turn to do the dishes. You make me do it for him". Somehow she ended up from talking about me doing dishes, to my best friend Emanuel. She said "I know the crap you guys talk onthe phone. And I know what you do in those long showers of yours". You want to know what I do in this long showers of mines?, I either low down the water pressure to get hit water and relax in it or just squeaky clean myself. I don't **********  in the shower cause it's a hell of a sticky mess to clean up... I know cause I've done it. After that she said nothing.

Now let's talk about my friend Emanuel. He's a great friend that I've known since 7th grade. He believes that he's part dog but let's not get into that. We tell each other everything and I mean EVERYTHING x]. He's bi and I'm pan/bi, we get along very well, never fought never ditched each other, always by each others side. Before my mother used to let us see each other (we aren't boyfriends or anything), but for the past month evertime I ask her if I could visit him, go to his house or if he could come to the house she'd say no.

If forgot to mention that when she was talking about the shower thing and et cetera, she also said "If his mom ever asks why you can't go or why he can't come to the house, I'll tell her why even if she doesn't like it". I think what she ment was "If his mom asks why he can't be here or why I can't go there I'll tell her that her son is gay" ._.

I don't even know how she found that out... She told me that god told her (yes she's a christian...) etc. This worries me cause if she tells his parents this... it would be the end of our friendship...

[Haxor]

Someone on my facebook feed, called Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood.... a plain reboot of FMA....

[Midnight Madness]

I have succumb to an upset that does not show any signs of yielding; in a moment of weakness, I fear it has overtaken me and may persist for a little while. From constant harsh criticism of me doing things I find fun, to argumentative instances, these past few weeks have drug me down into a pit. I can claw all I wish, but as of yet, I have found nothing but sand to grip at, and more coming down on top of me. I intend to stay persistent, and fight my way out of this hole, but for now, I am there.

I would like to put the blame here and there, but doing so will only earn me more metaphysical lashes. While I recuperate, I'm going to attempt to withdraw to my coolly contained side of logic and reason, not shunning all emotions, but only holding against my negative ones. I have experienced this once before, many years ago, and doing just this has helped, but back then, I did not have a second heart I hold with me...

The human mind is a curious thing, and it is just as imperfect as we are. My imperfect mind has fallen short, in this case, and my capacity for elation has slipped beneath what is sufficient for me to remain as I was. Vices such as anger and sadness are coming forth more often, in my purely grey state, but now I intend to make that grey absolutely translucent, and withdraw to a portion of myself to remedy the feeling. Of course, my friends will have significant impact on this effort, and especially so shall my mate. I shall attempt to isolate myself from strife, in all cases. But when you live in a home in which the proprietors of your domicile are constantly at the throats of one another, and ready to take yours as a trophy the minute you are not this way or that, it can prove more difficult.

But overall, I am bleak and empty at this point, and I shall likely come off as more mechanical at this point. In time, I shall recover, but for now, I must strategize and allow this to burn itself out. I refuse to be overcome entirely by this foul sensation. This tactical retreat is well past due. I am sorry to all this may affect.