Rants: Everyday Venting

[Grey]

I'm still sore from college yesterday, and my cold still hasn't yet run its course. I've also lost my medicine.
On top of that, our benefits are being cut again. There's very little food in the house and I doubt we can pay for enough food to keep everyone from feeling hungry.

[Fenox Helkiin]

Since Wednesday I've eaten:
Wednesday: A fry up
Thursday and Friday: 2 stir frys
Friday: A cheese and ham toasty
Saturday: And a steak pie with chips
Sunday: another stir fry
Monday: gammon and chips
Today: nothing so far
And I still get complained at by my older brother for eating all the food he can eat because he's a vegetarian.
On top of that I walk 1 hour and a half to get to college then another hour and a half to get back home again because I'd rather walk then take the bus. And by the end of the feckin day I've got chaffing marks on the backs of my legs from where I've been walking around so much each and every single week day. *sighs*


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[Midnight Madness]

Plain and simple, it's just not my day.

[Luggz]

I hate being such an introvert.

[saph the sergal]

now i remember why i dont play eve dust 514 much the teams are silly the battle i just had they all decided to use pistols and not anything smart depleting the clone reserves and making us lose the battle while i lost multiple fittings trying to keep them alive so we could take the objective so now i have to spend cash on new drop suits and tanks for more battles and the higher i buy the more it costs


EDIT: added my eve video no sound for 17 or so seconds


www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ft68E5w6bho

[George]

0ne of my friends and I inevitably fight every time we're together for a while. His idea of "humor" is to be a totally rude, egotistical jerk. I can't take this for more than a second or two, and when I leave to get away from it he starts harassing me as if I'm in the wrong because I don't enjoy people being blatantly rude to me. He tells me I shouldn't be mad cause it's "just satire". When I tell him I want space, he just gets worse and tells me I'm being dramatic. This tends to repeat because my other friends are fine with him and like to invite him to the chats we're in when he's online.

[HyenaKing]

I get sleepy when I talk to people.
When I'm alone I'm suddenly very awake.

[Midnight Madness]

Not only am I **censor** miserable with my job, considering the fact that the expectations are insanely over-the-top, they never have enough people and expect ONE person (i.e. me) to fill in for them, they just left me to figure my very specific job out rather than train me properly and this is draining away at my mind and body. All of this heavy duty hard labor mixed with emotionless bosses and constantly being assaulted by feelings of inadequacy and contempt has done nothing for me but make me a tiny sum of money. And seeing how I am moving soon, I want to get out. Now. I hate it there, it makes me unhappy. I want to do well, but I don't. Perhaps because of all the damn abuse they put their workers through only to say "you need to speed up." Because of how much it taxes me, and considering I work from 4pm to 1am, I basically spend my work week either unable to sleep as soon as I'm home and waking up at 2pm or so, OR I'm tired from the work days and wish to spend my days off relaxing and doing next to nothing. I dunno if any of you have ever worked for Walmart... but trust me, it is HELL when you're not the "manager's favorite"

But on top of THAT crap, I'm finally reaching that point where I am not as happy being single. It is making me sad, on top of the aforementioned bullshit I endure on a daily basis. I'll stick this one out, though. Just because impatience is not a vice does not mean that rushing a decision like that is acceptable.

[Trixsie Vixen]

I'm just so **censor** in the head.


The crazy is so strong now I can't stand to be around myself... sadly attempts at being someone else have failed as have attempts at getting out of my head.  Years of therapy and medication have done nothing and years of study have giving me no insight into myself.


All I can think of is that line in Lord of the Rings: "We cannot get out. A shadow lurks in the dark. We can not get out... they are coming"


I don't want to die, I want to live.  But it is hard to not seek oblivion.

[Fenox Helkiin]

I'm just so **censor** in the head.


The crazy is so strong now I can't stand to be around myself... sadly attempts at being someone else have failed as have attempts at getting out of my head.  Years of therapy and medication have done nothing and years of study have giving me no insight into myself.


All I can think of is that line in Lord of the Rings: "We cannot get out. A shadow lurks in the dark. We can not get out... they are coming"


I don't want to die, I want to live.  But it is hard to not seek oblivion.

Hey trix. If there's anything learned recently it's that the more you look into psychology and depression the more depressive you feel. It's because you start to notice things about yourself you don't like. I've been there and as crazy as it sounds just stop looking into it and accept what you already know.

[Ulfur]

Why does it have to be cold outside? All I want to do is watch the moon turn red. Cold cold cold. I don't need this, I'm gonnna go start a fire. Warmth warmth warmth

[Grey]

I have come to the conclusion that it is against the laws of nature for me to remain happy for any longer than an hour.

[Fenox Helkiin]

That not true grey.

[George]

I have come to the conclusion that it is against the laws of nature for me to remain happy for any longer than an hour.

This is my rant.

[Ben]

I watched that already, the moon turning red that is, amazing