Rants: Everyday Venting

[Regi]

Thank you for telling me! I'll totally looking more into those kinds of jobs; coding is just one that came to mind since I was interested in doing it when I was younger ,but wanted to persue the artist career.  I know my bf is going into IT Networking so he'll be bringing home the bacon, I want to be as helpful because I know if I go to art school and then finish I probably won't get a job afterwards. That's what I worried about the most. I'm in my last year of high school, so I need to figure this out quick.

[anoni]

Thank you for telling me! I'll totally looking more into those kinds of jobs; coding is just one that came to mind since I was interested in doing it when I was younger ,but wanted to persue the artist career.  I know my bf is going into IT Networking so he'll be bringing home the bacon, I want to be as helpful because I know if I go to art school and then finish I probably won't get a job afterwards. That's what I worried about the most. I'm in my last year of high school, so I need to figure this out quick.

You can use your art skills to great use while still being employable in many fashions. For example, graphical design is a very employable artistic field in which you have to visualize ideas and messages through art in a way that is well designed. If you prefer making stuff, sketching stuff or building stuff, industrial design would be an interesting choice, design things like the chair we sit in, the lamps we use, etc, etc, very employable field. Finally, if you like design and coding, you could consider website development, front end web-dev is a very employable field in which you may design websites to look as aesthetically pleasing and ergonomic as possible.

  It might not be as creative as art, but it uses your artistic talent to a use that is functional and employable.

[Buna]

I need to be more positive, I keep thinking about a person I once really liked but I'm pretty sure they hate me and could care less if I die, and that makes me upset. But that's okay because I have my guitars.

[Growlithe]

I need to be more positive, I keep thinking about a person I once really liked but I'm pretty sure they hate me and could care less if I die, and that makes me upset. But that's okay because I have my guitars.

Stoicism really helped me reach my equinox. I found it at a rough time like this. I advise reading the Enchiridion of Epictetus

[George]

I keep failing those I care about without an excuse.

[Grey]

^catching up on sleep is not a failure. Everyone needs a good kip.


I have sooo many assignments to do this term. All of them have unrealistic hand in dates.

[The Past]

There's someone I've been wanting to talk to for the past several months. We've texted once in a while, but we haven't actually had a call in a long time. Despite him saying he wants to call, whenever I ask if we can, he either doesn't respond or "has plans". When we finally set a time to do it where he's free to do it... It doesn't happen. I wait and wait and wait...

Maybe he only says he wants to talk because he feels bad. I should just not bother worrying about this anymore and drop the relationship. Getting my hopes up to only find out it won't happen every single time for at least seven months is painful.

[Cheza]

So mom decided to do it again.

I've been at a friends place for the past two weeks or so. We live kinda far apart and rarely have time to hang out like this, so now when we finally did we decided to try and make the most of it.

Everythings been perfect, I've got to hang out with someone who's not paid to hang out with me and we've had a lot of fun. Except for that mom's been pestering me with her "Why are you there when you could be here?!"-shit. Today she took it one step further by calling while being drunker than **censor**, whining about "having a bad feeling about all this" (probably because I've been trying to keep her calls short since it's rude to sit on the phone for 9001 hours without a good reason when you're with a friend) and demanding to speak to my friend. I told her no, since that'd most likeky have caused more issues than it'd have fixed (because there's a slight age gap)

So she started to whine about that "she must be right" since apparently no normal person want to hang out with friends they can't see every day for this long without there being something wrong.

Just feels like the police or something could come bursting in at any moment now >-> I feel bad for getting my friend tangled up in this mother-mess and frustrated in how literally everything I do is wrong in her eyes.
If I'm home alone, that's bad.
If I go visit her, that's bad.
If I go visit a friend, that's bad.
If I go to school, that's bad.
If I don't go to school because of severe deppression, that's also bad (because deppression isn't a thing unless it's she who has it)
If I pick up the phone, that's bad.
If I don't pick up the phone, that's bad.
And so on for all eternity.

Just what the hell is there I -can- do without enraging the sweet mother?

[Regi]

I had my last **censor** straw with my bf's older low life brother. He and his gf did LSD while there is a CHILD in the house and the older brother has ADHD (which does not mix well with LSD at all) and HE STARTS **censor** SCREAMING, LIKE BLOOD CURDLING SCREAMS. He started screaming and banging on stuff and I was so frightened that he was going to do something drastic. He broke a $600 TV trying to jump in it. I don't feel safe anymore.  I'm now sitting in a car waiting until the dumb **censor** is sober.

[BennyJackdaw]

Ugh, why is it so easy for me to fall asleep during the day, but so ****ing hard for me to fall asleep at bedtime!?

[Grey]

Dad's been on my case non-stop all month. If there's one thing, no matter how insignificant, he'll storm over to me and have a massive go at me. Even if I had nothing to do with it.

New rules that don't make sense have been put in place by him too. Nomatter what I say everything that goes wring is always my fault to him.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Sometimes I just want to scream at the top of my lungs in front of family so they'd pay attention to me. This gender issue is driving me crazy and making me depressed but to them it's like they don't even care. It's not all their fault though, it's mostly mine. I hide my feelings from them on a daily basis. I just don't have the courage to say anything so I sit quietly and do nothing. Everyone goes about their business while I'm dying inside and it hurts so much.

[Silentium Potens]

Wait, so you've never told them about your issue?
Why do you hide it?  Wouldn't it be better to talk about it to your family, or are they not accepting of it?

[Cecilia Peromi]

I've talked about it with my Aunt, but no one else. She (vaguely) understands what I'm going through. I told her that I want to talk with a therapist, she said that she would make an appointment but that was a week ago. She just doesn't get it, I don't want to wait anymore! I want this to be solved now! The more I wait the harder it gets and it just doesn't seem like she cares.

[Silentium Potens]

Talk to your aunt more about it.  Maybe she'll understand more.
Another thing is that if you're going to see a therapist without your family knowing, that could create problems.
If you feel safe about it, talk to your family about it.  Try not to hide it unless you know that revealing it will be problematic.
Honestly, I don't know what else to say.  Just know that you'll get support from the community.  Hopefully it all works out.