Rants: Everyday Venting

[Cecilia Peromi]

I didn't want to at first either, but it's been working well. It doesn't have to be a permanent thing. The medication is just a part of treatment. You use it like a bridge to get to a point where your depression is manageable.

[White Wolf Guardian]

Please stay on topic.

[Trixsie Vixen]

As some of you know, a little over two weeks ago my brother was attacked and badly beaten by a random stranger.


Since then things have not gone well, he has lost his eye, is undergoing surgery for the 40+ facial fractures and has now regained consciousness from his induced coma after days of stopping his sedation.


We have had to have the talk about what his wishes would be in case things deteriorate further for him.


Because he has a metal implant in his brain they cannot do an MRI so cannot determine the extent to which his brain has been damaged.


I have really tried to remain positive and hopeful and not dwell on the attacker, but today I just feel so angry I want to go full on masked vigilante and rid the world of evil.


*exhale*


I know all my friends will feel for me, but I don't really want to talk, I just want to cut all social interactions.  However I know I need to find balance.


Please just be patient with me and I will do my best to not be a shitty **censor** cow.

[HyenaKing]

I'm here for you Trixie. You need me, don't be afraid to reach out for me. I've been here for you for all this time.

[Rob_Silvermyst]

I certainly hope the police are tracking that lowlife down. It seems the people of this world are losing more morality by the day. Its falling into more of a crisis with violence becoming more commonplace.

[Farewell]

My family, they aren't bad people but they can push me to my limits. My Little sister being bitchy to me trying to start things up. My Big Brother antagonizing me until I loose my patients. My Mom always causing a guilt trip so she can get attention, or getting mad at me calling me some 'bully'. Lastly my dad acting like a child or yelling at me for complaining. They expect me to put up with their shit? No this is why I'm **censor** rude. Talking back or sometimes yelling (never in public as I don't want to make myself some fool), it may seem like I'm the bad person but no... No one looks on my side, they just assume I'm some prick rather than thinking 'what did I do'.. I'm The child who hates everything when really I just can't put up with it anymore. They label me like some bad guy, so I'll be a bad guy just so they can get off my damn back. It better offending or annoying them so they can leave me be. However I'm not saying I'm Miss.PerfectChild.
Just sometimes... They are a great family but things have been falling apart and we began to fight. I really miss when we got along more.
to top it off I can't make friends since Ive grown into some jerk, thanks to the bullying in elementary.. Oh that **censor** me up. I push people away when deep down I'm scared to open up to others, I grow some hate for no reason what so ever, or avoid anyone who wants to become friends afraid I may **censor** things up. I've made people cry, fear me, or just hate me for who I am. I may know many people but only have a small group of friends which are only at school, outside I isolate myself in the house, honestly the forum is one of the few things I have to keep me happy as its the only place I can feel comfortable around others without being a monster.

[Rob_Silvermyst]

Once again I'm reminded just how stupid and violent people can be. Within the course of the first two hours of work, I had to deal with five fights, a drunk employee falling down the escalator of the bus lobby, remind 12 patrons that you can't walk around the casino barefoot (seriously, if you can't stand walking in high heels, bring a thin pair of sandals with you as back-up, it's better than stepping on broken glass or vomit or whatever). And I had to deal with people making threats at the table game dealers. Once again people, don't come to a casino with more money than you can afford to lose and know when to cash out while you're ahead. Card games aren't rigged, it's just plain luck with a tinge of skill, and it's not the dealer's fault if you're too stupid to know when to quit or gamble more than you should. It's a good thing I'm getting paid double time and a half for it being a holiday, but still you always end up seeing some of the worst in people in this casino.

[Remo The Sponge Guppy]

2016 is just like 2015 is just like 2014 is just...

[Cecilia Peromi]

Man, I feel so sorry for all of you guys. I put you in my prayers you know, every single one of you guys. I just wish I could do something else.

[Rune]

My whole life I have had trouble keeping friends, in elementary school my first friend moved away, then my second friend moved away, then my third friend spent a lot of time with his better friends and made me into a third wheel. I tried making another friend but is got bored and tried making friends with the cool group that my twin was a part of but they all made fun of me and always put me down. I spent a lot of time just walking around the whole school by myself or sitting in the library. then middle school came. I had no friends whatsoever but I slowly built up a group of friends in 7th grade, although I didnt really fit in with them. they were always swearing and talking about sex which is weird because we were all like 13 or something. I soon moved to the nerdy group but I was too late and I became the third wheel, of the nerdy group. only one kid really was my friend in that group but he went to a different high school and I haven't really talked to him since. and now in highschool, I don't really have anyone I can call a friend I feel like people just don't like me. I always try to make friends but everyones so go damn busy having fun with each other to care about me, so I spend all of my free time at home on the internet. In that time I decided to join the art community over at deviant art, I made a few friends but they all just left me, I even had a girlfriend that I loved and I really couldn't believe she was mine, but she had her group of friends already and she always put them first. she always wanted to skype with her friends and I remember joining a livestream of one of her friends and she was talking to her. she was too shy to talk to me and that was the first time I heard her voice. I confronted her about this and she just broke up with me on the spot. I guess I just meant nothing. and whats worse she dated my best friend a week later. but don't get me started on her. the "best friend" always wanted to tell me how much of a good time she was having with her boyfriends and I was by her side for the whole lot of it, and when she broke up with both I was there to make sure she was all right. but when I asked her if she wanted to date me, she said that she only like me for my looks and that she couldn't. I try to re connect with her in desperation and loneliness but she always either gets hostile on me or ignores my messages. and now I'm almost 18, no friends, no place in this world, and all I can think about every night is how much I want to die and how scared I am of the future. I know this rant is a little overboard but ive been holding in a lot. I didnt want to hurt anyones feelings so I guess sharing this hear is a nice place to do it.

[Cecilia Peromi]

You aren't alone Rune, I'm 18 and I have few friends as well.  But this forum is really going to help you. Everyone is so nice and caring. You'll make friends for sure. I know I have.

[HyenaKing]

Rune! If you feel like it's a big rant, don't be afraid os starting a new thread! Then we can talk about you specifically, without getting off topic. And help and support and stuff like that. The community here is magnificent. Feel free to shoot me a PM, I would like to befriend you! I might PM you even. <~>

Post Merge: January 01, 2016, 11:18:16 PMYour story reminds me of myself many ways, it hits home really.

[Rob_Silvermyst]

*cuddles Rune warmly and wraps his angelic wings around Rune*
There is always hope in the future. So long as you hang onto that hope, things will start getting better.People like her are people who look out only for themselves, they want attention, they use drama to get it. I myself have been through a lot of bad relationships, so I know how it feels like to be betrayed constantly because I'm never 'good enough'.  But there are others who will be worth your time. Go to furmeets, cons, connect with people here.

[138]

I lost a good friend of mine (no, he didn't die). It's a shame how it went down. Over a simple misunderstanding. I guess all I can do is move on.

[Alistair]

Fighting with the parental unit about keeping my room after I leave for my apartment. Because I sure as hell won't sleep in the spare bedroom where the dog pisses all over everything including the spare bedroom bed.