It's come to my attention that even though I'm alive, I'm not really living. As in, I don't exactly have a life. I get up, get my art done, go on the computer and go to sleep. Of course, there's always sports but that too has become the very day mundane. Now that my dream career as a painter has been torn to shreds and thrown into the garbage bin, I really don't know where to go from here. On one hand, I want to create a video game and in theory, it all sounds great but I have no idea where to start. On the other hand, I want to kick up my Youtube Channel and start up some streaming and I know how to do all that but even with the lights and fancy tech, I still have two loud, disrespectful roommates who can't make their mind up on moving out or staying.
All in all, I feel like I belong with Youtubers and I've felt this way for a very long time. To go to VidCon, meet all sorts of fans and all that would be the best thing ever.. but just because I feel it, does that mean that it's my true calling or just another dream that may not happen?