Rants: Everyday Venting

[Cecilia Peromi]

You definitely need some better friends. A real friend wouldn't treat you like that.

[The Past]

There's this awesome feeling I get while I'm getting hours of great writing done, but now I'm too exhausted to think properly yet still in the writing mood. Continuing now is devolving the story into boring statements, but I wanna keep working on this. Why must I need sleep?

[Cecilia Peromi]

Sleep is good for you Evna. You deserve a nice nap after your hard work.

[kalan]

It's a specially annoying how they either don't say anything and hold a grudge for my months and just expect me to know why they're being such an asshole, or they they overreact and take it to extreme measures

I find this funny cause youve been doing the exact same thing to me 

[Cecilia Peromi]

Hmm... I'm sure you guys can work it out.

[Rocco Rex]

I hate it when we have people over. I'm expected to act friendly. I have nothing in common with them. And I can't be myself anyway. This place isn't my life, I'm out of here when I can. Then I'll be interested in trying to meet people.

[Cecilia Peromi]

You don't have to like someone to treat them with respect. Just be as polite as you can. What does it matter if you're not friends with them anyway?

[Rocco Rex]

Oh I treat everyone politely and respectfully. I just honestly have nothing in common with them IRL. I'm 19, and, today, the oldest is about 14. I much prefer to be left alone by everyone. And I don't know how to speak with people IRL, and I'll admit, too much interaction spooks me, I'm desperate to get away from it. Might be called social anxiety.
Thankfully I'm invisible... for now.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Then I would tell you to take everything slow. Don't push yourself too hard. You know, this website has helped me a lot with my social anxiety. I learned that people don't bite, not at first anyway. You just have to be yourself.

[Rocco Rex]

This site has really helped me too. Hence me talking about this. Unfortunately, the real me is, fine I'll admit it, scared of interaction and home. It sounds silly, especially considering I hide it by putting on a scowl like I'm ticked, and I act angry, but anger is how I hide it. I'm afraid of home (dad and the image family I've built for years and MUST maintain), and of speaking with people. I have guesses why, but I guess it doesn't really matter why...
It really decreases online, whenever I'm away from my family, or if it is something for me.


And it's extra bad today for some reason. My breathing is even changing. I mean, I shouldn't be getting this worked up because we have people over

[Cecilia Peromi]

Aww... poor Rocco... You shouldn't be afraid of your family, they love you. I'm sure if you talked with them about what's bothering you they would listen.

[Rocco Rex]

My father doesn't. He is an angry psychopath who hates literally everyone. And, while he plays Mr. Perfect in public, that mask comes right off at home. That's part of the reason I keep pretending the anger, it keeps me strong. And anger and hatred is all I know, it kept me going for so long,  And my family, especially my Mom, need a rock. And I must stay ready just in case


Oh shoot. I'm getting more and more nervous and anxious. Not good, not good at all. Nononononono

[★Amethyst★]

My family members sometimes throw tantrums over the dumbest things...

[Cecilia Peromi]

I'm so sorry that you have to live that way Rocco. Maybe a family counselor could help. And if not, just remember that you have the capability to control your own destiny. It sounds weird but it's true. You are your own master.

[The Past]

Looking back at my story so far, I don't like how I wrote it anymore. The narrator seems like more of a prick than he's meant to be, and I'm not sure how I can fix that.