Rants: Everyday Venting

[Rocco Rex]

Two semesters ago I had a horrible class. It took forever, was put together horribly, I learned almost nothing, and the professor was an utter dirt bag. I don't know about the professor, but this class is so far almost identical  And I'm already behind thanks to lovely computer problems

[Dax Declan]

I feel like there is something seriously wrong with me. When Im away from my Significant Other I feel like Im dying. I start to feel worthless, it feels like time is moving at a million miles an hour. I can't sleep, at night i just feel super restless. All I wanna do is eat and hide from the world in my computer. I always have a headache. And I just overall feel awful. Then the moment I see her face all that is gone. Time is frozen. A weekend feels like a month. Im more outgoing. My appetite is tamed. Im able to sleep like a baby. My headache is gone. And I just overall feel wonderful. The moment I leave her in scared, Im depressed, i get anxiety, I become jealous. I just feel like my world is falling apart when Im not with her

[Rocco Rex]

Thank you dad so much for being an utter piece of scum. Now I'm not going to be available online all day today or tomorrow and have to stay up all night tonight working on the assignments tonight, even though I start my job tomorrow.

[Farewell]

I'm in school currently, registering... Super stressed out. Trying to calm down.

[The Past]

I just remembered my ID card expired and I need to renew it. Problem is, my social anxiety is killing me and I'm gonna act like a moron doing it myself. It's pathetic how old I am yet still terrified of legal stuff. But I want to do it myself and get over it. I don't want to be babied all my life. I hate being a paranoid wreck.

[Angder]

I fear change, and my fear of my own future is only slightly less crippling than my complete phobia of my own past.

[Rocco Rex]

I fear change, and my fear of my own future is only slightly less crippling than my complete phobia of my own past.

Not sure your situation, but my history is... let's just say not PG 13. My future will be tough. I feared change too. But I realized pain, while not fun, is needed for growth. Once I accepted pain was going to be in between me and where I needed to get to, it got more bearable. First step was really hard though. Good luck. And I'm here if you ever want.

[Trixsie Vixen]

Do you know why I like you Rocco? Even when you're doing it tough, you're thinking about others. That's why I'm certain you will rise above your past, you are already better than it.

[Grey]

My macaroni and cheese! My brother keeps eating it! It's mine, I tell him! Mine!
I wish he would stop eating my macaroni and cheese.

[Rocco Rex]

Do you know why I like you Rocco? Even when you're doing it tough, you're thinking about others. That's why I'm certain you will rise above your past, you are already better than it.

Awe, thanks. Just trying to do the best with the hand I've been dealt and help others.

[Dax Declan]

I have had it with my dads dogs. He keeps getting more of these **censor** terrors. We currently have 3 and in the next year he wants 2 more. We were letting my cat walk around the house some more as a form of physical therapy due to these dogs nearly crippling her. But the stupid mutts broke down the gate and attacked her again. Luckily i was right next to her and stopped them before any damage was done. She's just shooken up now. But i had to lift up two 50 pound dogs up with one arm each as theyre flailing and attacking the cat. My **censor** heart is beating like crazy now. I've barely slept for the past two days and now ive gotta deal with this. Then my dad has the nerve to blame it all on me. I cannot stand it here. But if i left this house would be **censor**. Noone here does any dishes at all. My dad is a 47 year old man who doesnt know how to wash a spoon. It's pathetic.

[Rocco Rex]

If you're in a bad situation at home, make plans to leave. All staying does is make it so he doesn't have to change and hurt you in the long run.

Thanks to 16 yo brother, the second pair of headphones in two weeks just died  Good thing he hasn't thought of my ear buds.
Also, I misread something on my college's website. Badly misread. Like, disgusting illegal activity bad. I doubt the mods would allow me to say what it is. Just... no. Worst misread of my life.
 

[Angder]

Did a pathfinder scenario as a GM, And think I royally **censor** it up. Players say otherwise, but I feel like they are just being polite 

[Dax Declan]

I'm getting really sick of what I do. I'm just sick of myself as a person. I mpe around, I handle my issues poorly, I get upset that old friends have pushed me away completely (or maybe I pushed them away, Im not sure) then I do nothing to fix it. I don't try to confront them, or I kinda do, not really, then I get all weird and shy and scared that im gonna **censor** up. I always want change but then i just sit around in my own self pity or whatever you wanna call it. I'll get upset then "fix it" by making a pizza and eating the whole thing or sitting on the floor in my room drinking Coke. When I'm really upset I look for distractions. I'll go curl up and watch Netflix or play Videogames. I get headaches constantly at school and often times my headphones make the headaches worse. But do I take them out? No I just leave them in because Im an idiot who doesn't know how to deal with people and im scared of conversation so I just fight through the pain all day just so I feel like 5% less scared. And then I say I want friends but I stutter and mumble through all my conversations. Or if it's online it's inevitable that I'll say something that's gonna piss them off. Or if it's someone who really isn't sensitive at all they'll piss someone off then I'm associated with them and grouped together. Which I should be. I can be a piece of shit. But then when I'm really upset and out of it do I seek help of real people? No I go on a forum and cry about all my forums on there. But instead of putting it in a journal where people don't have to look at it, I shove it in here because of the word count, but then I end up typing 100+ words anyway. I just overall suck. Im probably not gonna do anything about it because that's how I am. Im not gonna say " noone comment on this" because i don't care, just know if you're gonna give advice. I probably already know. I just need to get these things off my chest. Ok... I feel a little better.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Writing things down is a great way to express your feelings. Dax, if you know what's wrong, if you know why you're so miserable, then you should focus all your time and energy into changing it. I know you can do it if you just never give up. And when you need help, please, come to me. I'll do whatever I can.