Rants: Everyday Venting

[Ori]

I'm getting really sick of what I do. I'm just sick of myself as a person. I mpe around, I handle my issues poorly, I get upset that old friends have pushed me away completely (or maybe I pushed them away, Im not sure) then I do nothing to fix it. I don't try to confront them, or I kinda do, not really, then I get all weird and shy and scared that im gonna **censor** up. I always want change but then i just sit around in my own self pity or whatever you wanna call it. I'll get upset then "fix it" by making a pizza and eating the whole thing or sitting on the floor in my room drinking Coke. When I'm really upset I look for distractions. I'll go curl up and watch Netflix or play Videogames. I get headaches constantly at school and often times my headphones make the headaches worse. But do I take them out? No I just leave them in because Im an idiot who doesn't know how to deal with people and im scared of conversation so I just fight through the pain all day just so I feel like 5% less scared. And then I say I want friends but I stutter and mumble through all my conversations. Or if it's online it's inevitable that I'll say something that's gonna piss them off. Or if it's someone who really isn't sensitive at all they'll piss someone off then I'm associated with them and grouped together. Which I should be. I can be a piece of shit. But then when I'm really upset and out of it do I seek help of real people? No I go on a forum and cry about all my forums on there. But instead of putting it in a journal where people don't have to look at it, I shove it in here because of the word count, but then I end up typing 100+ words anyway. I just overall suck. Im probably not gonna do anything about it because that's how I am. Im not gonna say " noone comment on this" because i don't care, just know if you're gonna give advice. I probably already know. I just need to get these things off my chest. Ok... I feel a little better.

I know you said that you already know about advice, but I could try:
Perhaps, only have one headphone speaker, or ear bud in at a time. It'll still probably stop people from talking to you, while also, lessening your headache. (Maybe.)

[Dax Declan]

After sleeping for about 3-4 hours a day for about a month my body told me that's not gonna fly and collapsed and slept for 14 hours. And I missed school. And now I can't see my mate today. And now she's upset at me.

[Rocco Rex]

I've been getting so little sleep lately and had so much stress my brain is starting to break. At times, I don't even know if something that just happened is good or bad. Can't quite think straight or concentrate well, taking longer to do stuff, forget what I'm going to say, etc. The crazy thing? It's starting to mess with me now mentally/physically. I'll be exhausted some time somedays, and then after a while I get an incredible energy boost. It's nuts. I should want sleep, but for some reason I just want to keep going and push harder physically. Although yesterday I had a little trouble walking and it felt like my legs were going to go out. Part of it might be I had just got off work and immediately walked/ran I don't know how far, could definitely be a mile. But still. Work, college, and stress aren't going to let up any time soon, but I desperately don't want to cut out the little time I do have for my friends.

[Jane]

I'm so wore out. Training is extremely difficult all I want to do this weekend is sleep. Not even see anyone or go anywhere.

[Romulan_Furry]

I swear to god, my mother is gonna provoke me into complete and utter rage. I make one comment on how my brother and I can do a quick clean-up to fix the mess HER ****ING DOGS LEFT BEHIND, and she goes into a complete conniption fit and wants the house spic-and-span-perfectionist-perfect-beyond-chome-shiny-clean for the impending arrival of my ****ing granddad, and I pray he's not as senile and blind to the truth as she is! It's this **** that drove my mother's last three husbands away! She's a complete workaholic, and expects everyone around her to work tirelessly to please her! In her mind, she's always right and everyone else is always wrong! And she says I need counseling and that I have problems!

... and people wonder why I am always so cynical, dark, and angry all the time. All they need to do is look at the people I am forced to live with.

[Nrein]

I absolutely hate games that Focus Majorly on luck. Give me a game of skill any day and I'll wreck.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Try Bloons Tower Defense, it's a great game. It's not pay-to-win either.

[Rocco Rex]

I might get kicked out tonight. My crime? I'm about to head to college by myself without dad's knowledge or approval. If he had called someone when the internet was first going down (he still hasn't called anyone) I wouldn't have to. At very least I'm going to get super cussed out. Might be kicked out. Worst case scenario is I do 'something'. I just can't say what it is.

[Ori]

Try Bloons Tower Defense, it's a great game. It's not pay-to-win either.

Agreed! It's rather addicting. (Been playing that game on and off for a couple years lol)

[Trixsie Vixen]

 I've had a respiratory infection for a week. Feeling a bit better yesterday but tonight I'm awake from coughing for hours.  Over it.

[Saturn]

Got the flu and strep throat. I've been in bed since yesterday and my doctor isn't in town. I've also been on and off suicidal. I just don't understand. People support my decision to transition at first then they turn around and treat it like its a bad thing. I guess they're doing it now because I'm actually looking a little different now. I go to a work at your own pace school and I'm having a really hard time with math. Also my state is allowed to reject my preferred name even if I look like guy now. So I have to go to school with my birth name until I somehow get the money to change mine. To be honest art is the only think that keeps me happy but I'll never be able to afford to go to an art college. Not like my parents will let me do that anyway. Reasons to keep going sure are dwindling

[138]

Furniture is heavy.

[Cheza]

My bike isn't where I left it.
I'm having bad feelings about this.


EDIT: It's definitely gone, but not necessarily stolen.
The Mama-dragon has been informed and has promised to help me get to the bottom with this.
Whoever is in charge of the phone tomorrow: I'm sorry.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Good luck Cheza.

[Alai]

I have no patience for people who complain but don't do anything to help themselves, when they have the exact resources they need to help them.
I could go on about how people should be grateful for what they have. But this is not about how people should "check their privilege," it's about the frustrating amount of apathy one person can have.


You DO realize you're not hurting anyone but yourself, right? Even if you think something won't work out, at least you can say you tried.