Time for me to vent now. I don't do it often. If I do I usually keep it to my own Personal Journal, but here we go.
I wanna be a bit selfish here now to just vent. Lately I try to respond every now and again here to reply to certain people, to help them. I want to vent now, though.
I've been sick and in pain for 4 or 5 days now? I can't recall exactly, as me being sick really threw me off a lot of things I was going to do. My planning usually helps me remember what day it is, how many days have passed since then. I mean I know and realise the date and time, just not how long something has been going on for. If that makes sense...
Usually if you live with someone they take care of you when you're sick. At least that has been my experience so far. This time I'm sick, though?
It's been nothing but me having to help myself and then also get yelled at and whatnot more because I haven't done certain things. No understanding, no going a bit less rough on me. Nope. Complete turn-pver from other times. The time hasn't passed for these things I have to do, as in the deadline hasn't passed by a longshot, but I get yelled at anyways.
Instead of usually sleeping in so my body gets more rest due to it being sick, I wake up (reasonably) early. I have to right now help this other person I'm living with (some of you might know who if you followed my Personal Journal)... I am so done with this. Hopefully this spring/summer things will come to a close so I can move out and live by myself. I don't "expect" people to take care of me unless they have a certain connection to me, or at least have some understanding. Like this one person I would expect it from.
After lunch I'm going to lock myself up in my room until dinner. Screw this.
Hopefully I'll get some writing and drawing going considering the time I have to do that, but I don't know if I can since I'm still extremely sick. It's hard to focus. Not so much a lack of motivation, rather a lack of focus and imagination. Sometimes I have imagination but not the opportunity to work it out (like what happened today so far I have to be busy with all kinds of things).
All these things that took 3 hours to do with this person could have taken me 15, maybe 30 minutes. It has to go their way, even if it's my things.
ARGH.
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