Rants: Everyday Venting

[Grey]

^Trix you poor thing. It will get better, just give it time.

[Trixsie Vixen]

It never gets better.  Everything always gets worse

People are always like "But Beatrix, you're so nice, you're so smart you're so pretty, aren't you're kids amazing"

Well why am I always so upset and why do I hate myself so much?

AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!

I just f%cking hate it!!

[George]

So many of my friends are in awful states all the time! It just ain't fair!

[Trixsie Vixen]

*Hugs BillyBob*


You said it mister!

[Grey]

I'm actually going to say something I've never actually told anyone other than Peace.

Before I met him I was downright suicidal. I had just broken up from my old abusive bf and everyone I knew had been avoiding me like I had the plague, my collegues at work were giving me a hard time, the people at my college did not care either. The few people I talk to said "give it time" as well.

And I did. While I'm still not on top form and bad things are still happening to me I'm muddling through it. Things are looking up, but that only happens when you stop looking at the bad things and look at the good no matter how small they might be.

What happens when you fall over? You get up, dust yourself up and keep walking. "Oops, there's a graze on my knee, but at least I'm not muddy".


No matter what happens Trix, you will always have us.

[HyenaKing]

YAYAYATYAY


YOur better now!!

[Trixsie Vixen]

Thanks for sharing Grey. *hugs*


IN any other thread I would say something else, but:


I can tell you all about the power of positive thinking, how to change irrational beliefs that lead to negative cognition, the existential philosophy of Albert Camus and the debate between Leibniz and Voltaire over the best of all possible words.


I listen to happy music when I'm sad to pull me out of it, I do exercise to fight depression, I volunteer to connect to community, I do artistic things to feed my soul, I play with my kids and I snuggle my dogs...


I don't have suicidal ideation, I see a psychiatrist and have tried 4 or 5 different anti-depressants.


But I can't stop crying and I just want to curl up and die.


I've project a positive image and I make others happy... I'm sorry, but what I think I need is a Trixsie for me.


Where my goddamn Trixsie?  It just sucks.


 

[Grey]

You will find your own Trixsie.

I'm not suicidal anymore, but just like you I still feel like crying.
These things linger and follow us.
Now it's a matter of looking at it and just picking away at it.

I'm going to be weird here and say that depression is like being told to eat en elephant.

It seems like a hard task to get through, but who says you need to do it all in one go. It's not going to disappear overnight, so you eat away at it at your own pace. Muddle at it until it's all gone.

[HyenaKing]

I'm jsut sad and fear the furry fandom is decreasing in size!

[Trixsie Vixen]

*hugs Grey*


Thanks buddy, you are right of course.  Some days I just get sick of eating elephant ya know? LOL


Went to the beach got some sun, think I've finished this stupid funeral photo montage...


Nice easy BBQ for dinner, early night.  I have my bounce turned back to Tigger before ya know it

[MaskaTheOtter]

I'm jsut sad and fear the furry fandom is decreasing in size!

I hear that but now that I have the company on my side we sould not lose to many other members.

...
......
... And Sis... *Wraps arms around and holds tight not saying anything just letting the tears fall from my face*

[Trixsie Vixen]

*Hold Maska tight*


I miss you when you're not here, but when you are I don't know what to say


 

[George]

This isn't something I should be complaining about, it's no big deal...
but I'm really not feeling like myself today.

Not bad, just strange. (and just a little upset in the stomach, but that'll pass )

[Grey]

AHH! My shelter got blown over and now I'm being rained on!

*flails arms*

[The Past]

Stupid people. Just... stupid people.