I am just 900,000% done right now.
3 of my friends (you know who you are) and I seem to be stuck in some sort of emotional situation... I'm not sure I even understand what's happening. One of them's having an emotional breakdown of some sort, and is beating himself up because he thinks he's a burden on us. He's having trust issues with one of us (specifically his boyfriend), but is more worried that he's being a paranoid wreck. He sometimes lashes out at one of us, but always regrets it.
That one of us is getting super frustrated with the situation, but he really cares about that friend. The other one (his boyfriend) is either unable to deal with this or not willing to put forth the effort, and I don't really know which it is.
Then there's me, constantly trying to help the guy, but getting absolutely nowhere with it. I don't know what I'm doing...
None of the pieces seem to fit together in my mind... we all love each other. We're supposed to get along and help each other in times of need. Now it's like nothing works and I feel like I'm just watching something beautiful fall apart.
The worst part is that if it did fall apart, I don't know whose side I would be on. I love all my friends equally, and don't think I could ever choose anyone over another.
I'm just tired of dealing with this... but I'm not gonna give up. Not while I at least have a chance of helping them.
I just wish they'd all see each others' sides of the issue, and try to work it out calmly and peacefully, without taking anything personally.
And I'm fully aware that they'll probably all see this... I just can't say things this way to their faces because I care about them. I love them, and never want to hurt any of them... but some things just need to be said.
So to my friends, I merely say this:
You are not a burden. You are not a problem.
You are all friends, and friends help each other.
I love you all, and don't want to lose any of you. Nor do I want you to lose each other.
Please.