Man, what the **censor**. I'm trying so goddamn hard to focus on getting things done and solidifying my future, and despite the setbacks, i have some awesome prospects with it ranging from game testing to acting, but something is at the back of my mind, nagging me; "you must be lonely, isn't there someone to deeply fill that loneliness?"
That nagging just won't go away, and my brain is just screaming for me to get a girlfriend. I really want to focus on my future, but my future feels empty whenever I think about it without somebody to share it. I feel like I need someone to shower in positivity and that different side of myself... But of those who catch me, I've either lost contact or circumstances keep me from hooking up with them. It's the most empty feeling I know, really, and It's very distracting.
I really am too emotional for my own good sometimes, but at least my body is very clear in telling me why I'm feeling some way. At least I'm calm, that's quite the plus, as i know how debilitating loneliness can be to some. Or how such a response to such loneliness can do harm to an individual. But... I'm strong. I'll push on through. I guess I know how I have to deal with it, and so I shall.