Rants: Everyday Venting

[HyenaKing]

Small loan of a million fake friendships.

[Cecilia Peromi]

What do you mean Wrath?

[MrRazot]

2:30am my flatmate brings home a party of free spirited individuals from one of the local clubs and things got noisy, waking me up.
It's now 4am and I managed to get him to usher them out so I can actually get back to sleep.
Everything smells like smoke now.

I'm forgiving him, but ehggh.

Also I think myself and the modding team would also like to know, Wrath_
Lol

[Regi]

I hate those who romanticize mental illness. Just please stop romanticizing mental illnesses, it's not cute, and it's not cool. Having mental illness is not 'cool', do not use it as your little 'quirk'. Saying you're psychotic for some weird aesthetic purpose, please while you can become self aware. It doesn't make you 'special'. It's okay to be open about your mental illness and talk about it, but please don't **censor** make it some edgy quirk you have. I see this way to much with tweens. So please children, become self aware.

[HyenaKing]

I hate neurotypicals, please stop romanticizing mental illnesses, it's not cute, and it's not cool. Having mental illness is not 'cool', do not use it as your little 'quirk'. Saying you're psychotic for some weird aesthetic purpose, please while you can become self aware. It doesn't make you 'special'. It's okay to be open about your mental illness and talk about it, but please don't **censor** make it some edgy quirk you have. I see this way to much with tweens. So please children, become self aware.

I agree so much. So. Much. I've gotten myself in trouble basically getting pissed off at these people.
It doesn't make you 'special' If you're "Special." Pleeease.

[Alistair]

Was asked by my peer support service person last week, and I quote, "What's wrong with you?" I'm mentally ill and it makes me somewhat socially awkward. Hearing that made me feel like shit and I didn't go out of the house for a straight week. According to her I've been rude to some people at the drop-in and it apparently didn't happen until my mate got here.


I think they're full of shit about the attitude change when she got here. I've been acting the same around them since before she got here and now they have a problem with me because she's around??? I feel scared and unwelcome in a place I've been going to for 2-3 years now. I have to make an effort to say hi to everyone there that I've never said hi to before because my peer supports person told me I've been ignoring people when they say hi to me.


I was there earlier today and I said hi to literally everyone. Makes me look like a try hard when I'm just trying to make up for shit I wasn't even doing before.

[Regi]

Was asked by my peer support service person last week, and I quote, "What's wrong with you?" I'm mentally ill and it makes me somewhat socially awkward. Hearing that made me feel like shit and I didn't go out of the house for a straight week. According to her I've been rude to some people at the drop-in and it apparently didn't happen until my mate got here.


I think they're full of shit about the attitude change when she got here. I've been acting the same around them since before she got here and now they have a problem with me because she's around??? I feel scared and unwelcome in a place I've been going to for 2-3 years now. I have to make an effort to say hi to everyone there that I've never said hi to before because my peer supports person told me I've been ignoring people when they say hi to me.


I was there earlier today and I said hi to literally everyone. Makes me look like a try hard when I'm just trying to make up for shit I wasn't even doing before.

Aw I'm really sorry that happened, I hope things get better for you over there! I know how you feel with your illness making you socially awkward; was it because when your friend joined you felt more comfortable talking to her since she's there, and they thought it came off as rude or something? If so that's really shitty of them to just automatically assume you have a so called attitude.

[Wolxikin]

I could have done more
I could have prevented all of this
Why was I not with him
Why didn't I do more

[HyenaKing]

I need to start treatment for PTSD again, after 4 years-- i've relapsed.

[Setcho]

Was asked by my peer support service person last week, and I quote, "What's wrong with you?" I'm mentally ill and it makes me somewhat socially awkward. Hearing that made me feel like shit and I didn't go out of the house for a straight week. According to her I've been rude to some people at the drop-in and it apparently didn't happen until my mate got here.


I think they're full of shit about the attitude change when she got here. I've been acting the same around them since before she got here and now they have a problem with me because she's around??? I feel scared and unwelcome in a place I've been going to for 2-3 years now. I have to make an effort to say hi to everyone there that I've never said hi to before because my peer supports person told me I've been ignoring people when they say hi to me.


I was there earlier today and I said hi to literally everyone. Makes me look like a try hard when I'm just trying to make up for shit I wasn't even doing before.

Im sorry to hear that, it makes me so mad when i hear stories like this. The people put in charge to help some of the people most in need, and they turn around and do shit like that makes me furious.  I really hope it gets better Alistair.

[Alessia Starfurr]

Was asked by my peer support service person last week, and I quote, "What's wrong with you?" I'm mentally ill and it makes me somewhat socially awkward. Hearing that made me feel like shit and I didn't go out of the house for a straight week. According to her I've been rude to some people at the drop-in and it apparently didn't happen until my mate got here.


I think they're full of shit about the attitude change when she got here. I've been acting the same around them since before she got here and now they have a problem with me because she's around??? I feel scared and unwelcome in a place I've been going to for 2-3 years now. I have to make an effort to say hi to everyone there that I've never said hi to before because my peer supports person told me I've been ignoring people when they say hi to me.


I was there earlier today and I said hi to literally everyone. Makes me look like a try hard when I'm just trying to make up for shit I wasn't even doing before.

Some people... make me want to rip this world in half with a giant laser beam cannon. Then put all the nice people on one side and all th jerks and idoits on the other.

Oddly I've found that the most delightful people I talk to have some sort of mental illness...why? I dunno, somebody look this up for me..

[Cecilia Peromi]

I'm sad... but my life is perfect. I shouldn't be sad so why am I? I know I have depression, but I take medicine. And I was doing so good for so long... I don't understand and I'm scared.

[Farewell]

I can't stand it anymore. I force a smile and act as if I'm happy for those around me, maybe sometimes I'm actually happy... However I'm depressed and angry. but my mom doesn't understand no matter how many times I tell her and I know for a fact my dad won't help... He never has. I just hate when people say 'I'm there for you' or want to 'talk' only to look good and get in my damn business. This has been going on so **censor** long and I've tried so hard to fight it, but it seems I can't. I continue to rot inside, that I'm now use to these emotions. I want to be happy more but doesn't seem like that will happen.

[Cecilia Peromi]

Zaida, I'm here for you. And I mean that. I'm just a message away.

[The Past]

I just noticed my elbows look really weird now. They jut out, and when my arm is straight it makes a dramatic crease as if I'm bending it the wrong way (mainly on my left arm). I don't know if it's from resting my arms on the desk awkwardly a lot, gaining a lot of fat lately, or a combination of both. Either way I hope they fix themselves if I stop doing that and lose weight.