My dad needs to chill. He's been acting nasty to both myself and my mother for a good 6 years now. Whenever I say I can do something differently than he does, (like when we left for our trip two days ago, I know I have to lift the gate up so the clip doesn't break; I can and have lifted it with one arm, the other arm holding my dog, for a good 3 years. When he came around, he shoved me out of the way and split my elbow again, against the house, and yelled at me saying even he can't lift the gate with one arm. When I offered to show him how I did it, he walked off, interrupting me with 'no you don't', not letting me explain or apologize).
I don't know anymore, my mom says she's going to talk to him about how he's been treating us both like we're dumb, shoving his ideas down our throats, and his opinion is the only good one because he's the 'man' of the house. Whenever we talk to him about something, he says to read the bible and we should respect him. ... not the bible I read but w/e.
My mother said she'd talk to him.. I think 4 years ago now. I have 7 more months until I can move out and move in with my brother, but I'm expecting a fight, saying that I know nothing about the real world or something. Plus he has a real problem with my brother being gay, and he's not even going to go to his own sons' wedding. Even just stopping by. Nothing. My mother doesn't agree with it, but at least she doesn't say so every 10 minutes, and she's still going to go and support him, because he's her son.
I'm working four part-time jobs, and worked three when I was still in school. I'm paying 2/3 of their bills, and figured out how I'd pay for a car and a camper when I was 12, with interest, payments, insurance and all that. I keep trying to show him that maybe I'm not a little kid anymore and that I can learn things on my own, without getting pushed around. But I guess we won't be able to go through his thick head.
It's just getting ridiculous and suffocating. I visit my brother whenever I can, but I still need to stay around where my jobs are. I'm tired of being called an idiot when I didn't hear a part of what someone was saying. I never heard of 'fry sauce' before we went to Sonic yesterday, and he called me an idiot when I asked, 'Whutsauce?'. (if anyone knows what it is, I'd like to know!) And I'm tired of trying to push what he says about 'new world order' and 'government takeover' out of my head every evening at the dinner table. I've had anxiety, life crisis and spurts of time where I feel like I've jumped into cold water, because he talks about the end of the world, FEMA camps, and everyone killing each other, ever since he discovered Alex Jones when I was 8. My posture is horrendous, hunched over all the time, because even though people say how much they like hanging around me, I still have his nagging voice in the back of my head calling me an idiot and unable to contribute to society. I know it's dumb to fuss over, but it just really bothers me.
....ah... if I should move this to its own thread.. I didn't realize how long it was. O_o
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