Things are getting to me.
I've had some personal issues in the last few weeks, but I've managed to keep them under control and managed not to let them overcome me.
Now, I'm breaking down. I'm barely holding together. I always feel like I'm going to cry, and I feel hopeless and tired and lonely.
This isn't the first hard time I've gone through. About a year and a half ago, I was on the verge of suicide, and it felt a lot like this.
I'm not as dumb as I was then, and I know suicide isn't the solution. But this feeling is killing me, bit by bit. I don't know how much longer I can hold up, how much longer I can put on a happy face and pretend it's all okay. I just hope I can get over this.
I just needed to vent bit.