this isn't right.

[Kodachi Devil]

Exactly as the title says. somebody help me out here.
I'm so irritable lately, mainly cause I haven't got any sleep in like, 6 days, cause of a certain couple family members treating me like crap.
and yesterday I lost it and blew up at my friend....and then this stupid gangster tahts been harassing me for months for being a 'faggot' as he so politely puts it, just kept getting on my nerves. Oh, but when he got in trouble, he said i was threatening girls and that I was also 'claiming that i would hurt/kill myself' so now the school is looking into my psychiatric health. We had a half-day of school today, and i went to the library after, where i almost got mugged by a freaking 4 foot tall middle school kid. My grandmother is yelling at me and saying it's my atitude that is why everyone hates me. Oh excuse me, you mean my NICE atitude? cause the kid that treats me terribly is the first kid in school i tried to MAKE FRIENDS WITH. pardon me for having my entire school year being hell. I think YOU would be a little irritable to.
not to mention my godparents (mentioned as the family members) claim to follow the bible SOOOOOOOOOOOO strictly. no, actually, they only follow what parts SUIT THEM. and my closest friend EVER, even though I met him over the internet, is treating me like crap now cause of something else that happened. I really thought he was my best friend and I could count on him. See, this dude a while ago, who was 22, kinda like.....I fell in love with an adult. BAD. FREAKING. IDEA. then it turns out he was cheating on me anyways, and figured it didn't really matter. Okay first of all I didn't know what to think aside from the fact that I wanted him back. Well a LOOOOONG time later, namely 2 days ago, in my intense anger/frustration I finally told him off cause i almost ended up in a bad situation with him again. i told him off, and I was pissed, and the only reason i apologized is cause my super-best-friend is pissed at me! I can't believe he'd take the side of a dumb PEDOPHILE. And now he's still P.Oed at me and I just can't take it! I mean I honestly didn't know what to do cause my friend got hit by a drunk driver last night and SHE MIGHT EFFING DIE so i went to him for help but oh, i'm sorry, a dumb pedophile is worth more than a young girls life. And at this point I'm either gonna do something to myself, or I'm ggonna find the drunk that hit her and kill him myself cause prison is too freaking good for him! and now my best-friend-ever is crying cause I took the side of..well....i took the side of some creep that's been hating him for a while, and now I'm regretting it, even though I'm starting to believe that creep cause honestly, my friend is making me freaking cry worse than I already am.  I just wanna curl up in a corner and die. I really do.

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it's always tough to give a reassuring word that works in situations like these, the only thing i can say is that things will get better. these bad times can't last forever, they never do.

[Kodachi Devil]

Thanks, drake...

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sorry i can't offer anything else in the way of reassurance

[The_GMan]

I can see from the way you wrote your topic that you are really stressed right now.

Let me tell you that no one is going to die here, ending life is the most coward way to approach things. (*turns off the super serious mode*)

By coming here you are telling us that you want to improve things, so you are not curling up in a corner, which is good

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Before you can do anything I would really recommend getting some sleep. Weekend is approaching. Relax, go to bed earlier and sleep until you think you don't need more rest. When your mind is more settled and calm.
Call your best friend and tell him that you need to talk with him, explain your situation and tell him that you really need his help going through this hard time.
Go to the hospital where your friend is hospitalized and pay her a visit, let her know that you are there if she needs help.
If your parents try to stop you from doing anything just ignore them and tell them that you are doing what needs to be done and that you are trying to make your life better and easier.
If you get mugged at school try to talk your way out, if you can't then just ignore him and do your normal stuff.

But the most important thing of all is to stay sharp and think clearly on how you are gonna get your self out of this, get some sleep, really.

This might not help a lot, or help at all. I try to make my help as best as possible, but since I'm just a teen like everyone else, there's not really something I can tell you that works as I've yet to be in a situation like this (and hopefully it will never happen)  every life is unique, I think that it's up for everybody to be self-sufficient but no one deserves what you're going through.
My best of hopes that you can get out of this situation as fast as possible  

[Kodachi Devil]

Thank you, gman. I think i will do just that. But, i can't visit my friend. See, she's in thr intensive care unit. So only family can visit her. They won'( even tell me exactly whats going on. But my mom found out a little for me...it doesn't look too good.

[The_GMan]

Well, I'm very sorry to hear that :'(

I hope she gets better and the best thing you can do about it now is to have faith that she will get better, we all hope she will.

I also hope that the [removed] son of a bitch who hit her realizes the harm he has caused. Damn these drunk drivers.