I don't know if you'll be able to respond, since you're muted right now, but I've got some friendly advice. Between this, and many other posts I've been seeing from you, it occurs to me that you are either very young (16 or younger), or if not then at least a little immature for your age. I say this not as an attack on your character as a person, but as an alert- an alert that if you were trying to give people a different impression, it's not working. People often say the teen to young adult years are difficult and confusing. And in many ways they can be, but it doesn't
have to be as big of a deal as many young people are led to believe it will be. We're told even before entering puberty, that adolescence is that scary, uncertain, and confusing time in a person's life where they struggle to find out who they are, and what they want out of life. But the truth of the matter is, you have your whole life to figure out what's really important.
The most mature among us are not the ones who get everything figured out as soon into adulthood as possible, and they're not the ones who walk the walk and talk the talk of someone much older than themselves. The most mature among us are those who realize that they're changing every day, who leave themselves open to those changes, and who act their age. If you're not at the point in your life where you've started having serious relationships, then don't start categorizing yourself as straight, bi, or gay. Don't simply assume "I'm the type of person who would enjoy X type of relationship" As Steve Jobs once said "people don't know what they like until you show it to them". Take that to heart, acknowledge and appreciate the fact that the world still has a lot to show you. You can't possibly know all the things you like yet, because you don't know even half of what there is to choose from. And don't take that to mean that your options are limited because you don't know anything, take that as proof that you are more free than you know- free to wait on the big decisions, and take things slow.
And furthermore, try to understand that "what you like", "what you are", and "who you are", are all very different things, and quite independent from one another. If "what you like" is behaving in a way that is feminine, it doesn't have to mean that "what you are" is female. And as far as what being a furry says about you- realize that this is not an identifying feature. This is not a part of "who you are", this is just part of "what you like". It's a fandom, and as long as you treat it that way, it doesn't define you- it becomes an alienating eccentricity when people begin to treat it as a way of life. That being said- don't come here for safety, come here for fun. You need to find that safety in the real world, and realize that everyone's not "paranoid". There are people you can trust, and if you don't currently know any who fit that description, then you need to go find them. If you think people are paranoid because of some diminished love of God, then perhaps it's quite likely that it's
you who are too paranoid to do anything for yourself. Not trying to thwart your faith here, but when you say "Everyone's too paranoid in the real world... they must restore their love of God", that really translates to "people in the real world are making decisions without the consultation of a higher power, and I don't know how/I'm afraid to do that, so I'd better act like it's
everyone else who's afraid to trust in the power of righteousness".
Please understand, I'm not asking you to abandon God, if he is a part of your personal faith- but if he is, then you should interpret his silence to be his wisdom. If you ask a person a question, and they refuse to answer, it means they want you to figure it out for yourself. Similarly, if you're hiding behind the idea that God hasn't told you what to do yet as an excuse for not engaging your fellow man in the real world, then you're going to spend a long time waiting to understand yourself, and the role you have to play in this life. All the same though, that doesn't mean you should rush to conclusions about who you are. In the mean-time, when you don't have a clear picture of who you are, you can always say "I'm a person who could be anyone". And when you don't have a concrete idea of what you are, you can always say "I'm learning". There is a way to always be certain in life- and that is to always be certain that there's more to see- the best is yet to come.