Do I know where I am going to?
Besides a grave eventually? Well, since life is relative, it's what you make of it. Right now I am in quite a rut, though, I do long for plenty of things and am sure life has plenty of joyous moments for me yet. Life has shown me a sense of impermanence that has lead to negative thinking yet that is only a state of mind and as long as I don't cherish such a foolish way of viewing the world, time will heal.
What is more closer to your heart: love or power?