I just kinda live my life as a berserker xD That's what makes me, me. I don't fear what makes people squirm, I'm a little unnerving in my own right and I know it. I'm kind of like a live performer, an odd fellow who just does whatever. Sure it shoots me in the foot, but I enjoy it and find great identity there.
Also, as an afterthought that's rather obvious, weapons.
I'm STILL trying to find that illusive high-round 1944 Tula carbine in a '38 stock... One day...