All this time, watching you
Seeing you, being you
Wanting to reach out
Just wanting to shout
Afraid you'll speak
Afraid you'll be silent
Will you think I'm weak
Will you think I'm violent
I understand, I do
Why you only trust a few
If I could tell you my tale
You would know that I know
But if I tried to but failed...
Would that be worse
Worse than never trying?
The fear of crashing stops me flying
But the sitting feels like dying
I'm burning and freezing
Like lasers on ice
Buried in my skin
Deep under, deep in
Sometimes I can almost let it go...
I wonder who has captured whom
When I'm alone in the room
And I feel you, feel the distance
Would that increase the resistance?
I wish and dream and hope in fact
The opposite will get you to reach back
My brain is self protecting
I try to think but it keeps deflecting
And I wonder if fear rejection
Or fear that you'll see a pale reflection
Because if you did you would be wrong
But that what you see all day long
I don't even know why I care what you think
But I feel it, I am on the brink
Maybe you are symbolic perhaps
I've done that with a few girls and chaps
But before it was different and it didn't go on
So long...
Going, going, gone.