My own character hates me

[Rainbows]

Actually hate's too strong, less tolerant of my shenanigans. He went from being super friendly to short tempered and snippy. And that's just towards me, everybody else he's still nice to. Jerk =^=

[George]

I can almost relate. I don't often break character when I play EQ2.

My alt is snooty, stuck-up, and certainly not manly. It gets annoying.

[Rainbows]

EQ2?


He used to be really nice to me and we were friends. It is crazy but he used to talk to me and joke around, now not so much. :<

[George]

Ah, so he's a seperate conscious, not just a character.

Well, that's rough considering there's no way to escape him!

[Rainbows]

Character developed a conscious. But I had a freakout back in November and yelled at all my guys. Other than the occasional fade in/out, they haven't really spoken to me since.    When they do he's kind of snippy :I

[Twilight Rose]

Tulpa-style? If they developed their own consciousnesses, you probably hurt their feelings. Have you tried seriously apologizing to them and trying to make up with them? Until a certain point, that initiative will need to be taken by you.


I myself am a writer with upwards of twenty sona/characters, and they pretty much all have self-awareness.

[Rainbows]

I have on multiple occasions and he's never fully accepted it. But he's actually letting me draw him again, so things are getting better ;v;


I can understand that. My head used to be a total madhouse, they never stopped talking.

[Vulpatrino]

Huh, I've never let any of my characters gain sentience (at least, not fully). Usually, they only talk when I talk to them.

(Also, on a side note: Since at least one other member has a tulpa, anyone interested in making a tulpa thread?)

[Rainbows]

I like that they have, they're developing on their own and not solely dependent on me.
I had to google what a tulpa was...never knew there was a name for it, I just thought I'd gone nutty. But yeah, that'd be a cool thread

[Twilight Rose]

Tulpa.info is one of the relatively few more useful sites on the subject... Anywhere else and its kinda like hearing about the furry fandom from a troll. They tend to make it sound like any tulpa will try to kill you in your sleep, which they won't, and can't.

[Rainbows]

Well of course they can't, why would anybody think so? I shall definitely be looking into that.

[Twilight Rose]

The first intentional tulpas were made by the Tibetan monks, and for a long time they were the only ones who knew how. The first person to bring the idea west made one, and was so scared of it that it turned malicious. Her conviction that it was evil made it worse, and it started harassing her constantly. So naturally, she wrote a book saying how evil they are.

[Vulpatrino]

Ah, so THAT'S how the rumor started!

I never understood that, 'cause my tulpa is usually kind and gentle. Very disapproving of my bad habits, but never rude or mean, much less evil.

[Rainbows]

Wow, that's terrible. :<
I've been looking more at Tulpa.info and I know that's exactly what I had been doing. I would spend hours a day just talking to and developing them and now I don't do that at all. I haven't tried in months. I need to start again.

[Twilight Rose]

Yeah. For me, it was being a writer; I pretty much talk to them constantly so I get their stories right.


And yeah, I actually had to read a part of the book one time. Wanted to bash my head against a wall.