I can detect bullies at a near single glance and have never been wrong I've experienced them so long I just know who is and who isn't. I usually avoid people since seeing the bad eggs in a group leads me usually unbothered unless I can evade it somehow. As a hence, with a combination of this and pseudo-agoraphobia (spatial vertigo) I am avoidant of real life scenarios with people. I also find no one into my same interests as those are quite deep compared to the more shallow extroverted activities many local people my age undergo.
I can be fragile so I always make sure I at least have all the right facts and sometimes get mistaken for trying to sound like I know it all (I just research deeply into recurring subjects). The side effect is complex reasoning, rendering it hard to explain to others why I am a certain way especially due to my logical preference which leads me untrusting of raw claims by people.
I'm frequently misinterpreted and have a multi-layered defensive multiplicity. Though my doctor considers me mentally healthy as I can cope with normal stresses. I do not take any mental medication. I have often a low mood (neural) but it does not affect my function but this is due to constant external/physical pressures. When others are down and I probably should, I'm generally optimistic for them and take much effort in keeping them together.
I do not have a severe anxiety but rather avoidance of inefficient commitments in contrast to my primary dedications. I do possess normal anxiety, however.
I can't remember if I said this but I'm polyamorous though I avoid relationships where there is no bond at all due to affects to schedules. I may become monogamous in time, however.
I look at my self and wonder how my conscious is here.
Your consciousness isn't in, say, the mirror so may be that confused you moreso than recognising that you were the origin of judging of your observation. Ever crossed your arms over twice and been unsure which is left or right after a pause of not moving them briefly?