Mind Matrix (Random Shorts)

[Tim Siguire]

Ok. He mmmiiiight have hair... not for sure, think i'll just keep the spurs and spikes.


But if I were to actually give him hair, it would cover all of his face, except for his eyes..
Like, the hair would not even touch his eyes. It would avoid them.


But I think he's going to be hairless... It all depends on what his head will be, lizard or leopard.


His clopthes... doesn't matter, mthe dude can be only wearing a shirt for all I care.

[Tim Siguire]

I have always wondered why but I have a slight self esteem issue.
it used to be worse when I was younger, I grew out of it but I still have my major concerns.


I sometimes feel annoying in a way. I actually do feel annoying alot. heh, it's not always present but I feel it whenever I talk to someone. So I usually keep conversations short.


I feel annoying or awkward, never both. Aaaand then there's lonely... the one I hate the most.
I've had moments where I feel lonely... I try not to focus on it though.


I just thought of splitting these page long stories into two parts.
That way it isn't obnoxiously huge.. and even I lose interest after just looking at the page.


Question, not like anyone's going to answer, let alone read or see this.
What is your most undesirable emotion or feeling?
Mine is the Annoying feeling and lonely feeling.

[Tim Siguire]

Of course.. I had thought so, most of these views are probably from me.

Well... im sorry if I sound negative or sad. It's how I feel when I visit this thread sometimes.
Why? because im the only one in it,

Im not saying I want everyone to look, I just want one person to post here every once in a while... instead of me.

Hold up.... do MY views even count? I know they have to... if not then... im more confused than anything.

[Tim Siguire]

In case anyone didn't know. one quick fact, I like aliens.
ok, BTMEP.. Tim is not "animal" or human to make it easier.

The only thing human about him is the Weasel. The Jackal part is like Rocket Raccoon...
Rocket Raccoon is a life-form from Halfworld that just happens to look like Earth's Raccoons.
Tim is an alien hybrid, his mother was from the planet Aguilaria.
So Tim's resident term would be Aguilarian or Agual for short. He is a life-form that happens to look like Earth's Jackals.
But here's the bonus: Tim KNOWS what Jackals are so he can just easily say he's one of them.

Back To My Earlier Point

[Tim Siguire]

Cool, it went up like 11, no... 15 views! That is enlightening!!

[Tim Siguire]

Shazza.... YOU WILL BE FINISHED!! and eventually created.

[Tim Siguire]

BADABADUUUUMB!!! I.. GOT IT!! Shazza is a.. damn, what his fur color? Doesn't matter right now.
Shazza will have Leopard fur and body, but Dinozoid Eyes and Tail, with the spikes and tri.. traff.... the things that run down the back of most lizards and certain dinosaurs. Troughs? that might be it.


Leopard with Dinozoid qualities, long Dinozoid claws and teeth. Eyes, and Tail.

[Trixsie Vixen]

Lol

I can't keep up with your posts Tim!

My most hated feeling is the feeling of servitude.

[Tim Siguire]

Stuffy / Stuffies / Stitch Creatures!

A fun little character i've had on my mind hours today.

It doesn't have a name, doesn't need one.. Stuffy might fit though.

A Variable colored Stitch Creature. only 5'1". It has no gender or gender identifying traits but some creatures can have them added for personal reasons or to identify itself.

Some live alone in a completely alternate dimension, others travel and live in forests alone or with a small town.
They usually prefer being with someone that appeciates their company.

Though stitched and stuffed, these creatures can possess the emotional capacity of an average fur, more or less, evenso.
Oh, Stitch Creatures vary in size too. Some mount over most at 10+ Feet, others as tiny as a basketball.

They can do just about anything an average fur does. Except fight for long periods and reproduce.
How there are so many is a mystery. Some are believed to be possessed by the spirits of innocent children and people.
I know it sounds a bit crude but I was trying to make a sense of their existence. and to make them feel even more human.

Stitch Creature are very useful. They have varying textures, stitching, designs, and even personalities.
Some stay around to serve you while others want to be your best friend.

Depending on how it's stitched, a Stuffy can be thick and tough, made up of all stitch, (metal, plastic and whatnot) or be all cloth, having very little stitch holding it together.
Stuffy are not fragile though. The magic in their cloth bodies, or Spirit Essence, keeps them from breaking thread and losing limbs.
It is VERY, VERY RARE If a Stuffy can speak, as that requires a rigorous reanimation ritual process along with Soul Bonding.
And Soul Bonding is EXTREMELY difficult if the body already has one possessing it. Because one body is allowed one Spirit possession. More than one would cause unintended side effects, flashbacks, unwanted autonomous actions and etc...

[Tim Siguire]

Lol

I can't keep up with your posts Tim!

My most hated feeling is the feeling of servitude.

What? I post like once a week Until recently which was twice a week.
Hm, that servitude can be a real cowboy can't it? Lol

[Trixsie Vixen]

You did two post since I looked!  D=

[Tim Siguire]

Oh.. well, sorry? lol

[Tim Siguire]

It is scary how strong humans can be... but it is even more scary of how fragile we are.

Able to break a plank of wood but can be broken just as easily.

It's amazing how our bones can take so much before snapping lol.

Now, as a human myself, I can identify myself as weak. Because I kinow I am.
Half the people I meet are stronger than me, by a little or alot.

Now, to think of yourself as fragile is easy or hard, depending on the person.
But, no matter your muscle mass or ability to take pain, we are all human.

Therefore we can break just as easily as another human.
Imagine the fact the you could get broken into fractures by a PVC pipe, and then by layered wood.

Scary, isn't it? Now imagine trying to break those objects yourself, without suffering a fracture, bruise, dislocation or severe cut.

Most of us can't, but there are those who can. Yet they are as easily breakable as you.

Destruction = Mass / consistency X success rate.
Destruction Equals Mass Over Consistency Times Success Rate.
YES, that is a random formula I just came up with, but think aboout it...

Name one thing you know, made of... let's say glass, that wont hurt you if you broke it... can you?
And I mean physically broke it without a tool.
The formula works, by theory. Obviously it isn't real or proof-ful. And now for a quick pun.


I knew this crazy guy who used to work with bones. He's in an Asylum now. I guess he just snapped.

[Trixsie Vixen]

LOL


Snapped


*giggles*

[Tim Siguire]

I have a mindset, which I cannot explain but I can explain what I understand about myself.
I... view things a little differently. I always want to be different but... never alone.
My thinking pattern is actually very simple but it's difficult to explain HOW simple.


I also forget easily. I know I have emotions and im slowly becoming more sensitive to them.
I hope that I never lose them. Then i'd really be alone. I used to be less... understanding of emotions so I would seem, bored or irritated. When I was younger, irritated was a constant. Now i've learned to be more accepting of said things.
I still don't like certain qualities but I have my feelings about them change often.


I can't explain my emotions though. Because im so free and forgiving, I can easily brush off most things.
Although I feel I have a pit of resentment and dislike somewhere inside me.
Which I figure why I get irritated easily.... I don't know.. I used to hurt in my heart everytime I yelled at a family member or argued.
And when I bursted with a snap at someone I liked, it would hurt. And it didn't even have to be a romantic or friend-like relationship.
It had to be someone I viewed as respectable, trusting, or nice. I eventually started pushing away those pains and now it never happens.


I sometimes think I grew up a little heartless but I blame the kids in my schools.
 I never really felt like I had friends and I always hated being called a Special Ed kid, even though I was in it for 9 years, 3rd to 12th.
I have a very creative mind though I used to love playing with blocks, mega-legos, and anything solid with Art Properties.
Except drawing. I HATE Drawing... just like my handwriting... it's not perfect either.