*I open the door, and wince at the loud music. I try to not look anyone in the eye, as I walk towards the rear-left corner of the club, and I sit in an unoccupied booth, turning the little bauble around my neck in a more rapid fashion. I close my eyes, and slow my breathing.* "Just keep calm...just keep calm...you're here for fun...not work...they don't know...and that's okay." *A few party-goers eyeball me a second, before walking away.*