I feel like ranting/venting about the more or less past week, but since I put myself in this situation, I feel like it's not my place to.
It's really starting to eat at me. I feel failed, lost and confused. I don't know where to turn since this thing, while serious and sadly also probably not too uncommon, doesn't seem to have any real proper support groups anywhere online. Not sure how much it'd help, but at least in a place like that I could talk/vent with people who know how I feel and not have to feel like I'm just whining for attention and/or other selfish reasons.
My family (with one exception) have no idea about this whole thing, and the one person who do has already got enough on their plate without also having to babysit me. The rest is most likely better off not knowing since it'd most likely do more bad than good to tell them.
I've never had many close friends, and while I'm usually perfectly ok with that, this is one of those rare situations where I wish I had tons of friends who would just hug and be there for me.