Depressed and Furious

[Farewell]

So I'm in summer school (yes I'm a **censor** dumbass amazing right) some dude in front of me got me pissed by taking my phone away until I yelled to give it back, once he did he laughed at me then started saying annoying things, one was do you do drugs. My answer was 'no I don't and I'm not a **censor** idiot like you'
mason (the asshole) laughed at me saying he had a better grade so who was stupid again?...
my anger grew more and it was true... I told him to 'shut up and screw himself'
He laughed saying I wish you die from cancer... Laughing more
And I almost cried but I don't cry in front of everyone since people called me 'cry baby' for doing that in the past in elementary from everyone since I was considered 'different' especially my siblings and my dad, my dad said it was because he wanted me to grow strong and not to let things get to me... Which never helped but make things worse, Anyways my cousin is dying from cancer and no he won't get better since it's gone to far which is a reason I was going to burst into tears...
Then my dad yells at me to get A's next time and once I graduate, do college... Then me and my sister were arguing and my sister went to far with insulting like always saying 'how about you do the math Gigi!! oh wait you can't stupid, a reason why your in summer school huh? Sorry' and of course my dad and brothers laughed thinking it was funny...
I don't know what I to do I don't know who to talk to, I just hate myself, I feel like a god damn idiot... And depression and fury is just breaking me down but depression is over running, i might seem tough but I'm very fragile and can't handle things like this... I really hate myself, I even call myself stupid.
I mean and things got worse, my mom had a seizure recently and I didn't know so I called the ambulance and they rush her out, she's fine now but now my dad and her are arguing... Really bad that my mom is looking at houses behind my dads back... Might be a divorce soon. My sister and brother call me theses names and we're arguing...

[Setcho]

i have one thing to say, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! i cant make that clear enough...i was forced out of school due to similar reasons, you know what it made me a better person because of it. my auntie just died of cancer and if anyone said something like that id probably flip, but the best thing to do is be the better person and ignore them, dont go down to their pathetic level rise above it. i can tell you now, yes im a random person on the internet but i can tell you now, theres alot of people in the world, especially on this very website that would never wish for someone to just disappear. and as a side note grades dont mean crap really, a job interview; grads count 10% of it or something stupid like that so. i hope ive helped  in some way.... 

[Teiko]

Sorry to be that guy... But that's just the way humans are. Most of them are awful people. And it will definitely get much, much worse for you. You eventually become numb to it so don't worry.

[Farewell]

I hope so, my stomach hurts, my eyes hurt. I really hate it.... Thank you both

[Teiko]

The less you expect goodness out of people, the more meaningful it is when you come across the rare people who are good.

[Setcho]

no matter how bad it gets, it always gets better...trust me it does

[George]

Sorry to be that guy... But that's just the way humans are. Most of them are awful people. And it will definitely get much, much worse for you. You eventually become numb to it so don't worry.

So maybe you're right in your current orange-text. Don't try to drag others down just because you're discouraged.


The best way to avoid people being nice to you is to assume they won't. My recommendation is to focus on the fact that the idiots will always be idiots, it's nothing personal. I understand that it's incredibly frustrating, but Setcho's right. You know better people, and there's plenty of things for you to enjoy. Just know that every time something like this happens, you can still look forward to the fun things, the nice things, and the Red things. Just be strong when you need to be, and never give up. You don't need your family's approval to be yourself. You're not a crybaby for having feelings.  You're not stupid for not caring about menial busywork. Don't let anyone demoralize you, because you're your own person and you don't need to fall victim to the negativity of those who don't care about you or envy the strength of others.

[Teiko]

Just for the record that has nothing to do with it. I don't mix emotions with critical thinking. Even if i were in a fantastic mood i would still realize how horrible people are. That is not my mood. That is my perception of the world. Don't assume that you know everything about everyone.

[Grey]

The less you expect goodness out of people, the more meaningful it is when you come across the rare people who are good.

Don't listen to this guy. He has no idea what he's talking about.

There waaaaaaaaaaay more good people out there than you'd think.

Anyway's, who cares if you don't get A's all the time? I certainly didn't. I'm doing just fine now. Obviously I'm not saying to  just give up, god no. Just do what you know you can and be proud of what you have achieved. If you feel like you've done your best then that's great.

People may laugh at you now, but if you keep being determined and keep going and working no matter what they do, eventually it'll all pay off. Then you get to laugh at them.

[Farewell]

Thanks, I'll keep that in mind guys. I'm beginning to feel better

[HollowOfHaze]

It is true that there a lot of people who find pleasure in tomenting other people. The solution I find most effective is to make sure you rise above them. You do not have to be the best. That would be an unreasonable expectation of anybody. What you should do is become better than them. In the future, when you are above them and they ever beg for your help, you can walk up to them and quietly whisper "No".

That is the best revenge. A kind which does not pull you down, but rather gives you the drive to succeed, by whatever standard you personally consider to be success.

[Dr. Alka Wolf]

Sorry for the late reply, but I would like a say in the matter.

First off, if you really want a summary of any advice I can give to you, go to this thread ----> http://www.thefurryforum.com/forums/index.php?topic=28001.msg1434297#msg1434297 . I don't think I can rewrite it any better (since copy+paste makes me feel like a prick) than I already have. I'd recommend it, because everything that isn't simple opinion (everything besides the advice) is backed up by evidence you can find in various science magazines and psychological studies

Second off, well, I'd strongly advise talking to the people (in private chat) who have posted on this thread. Venting is probably the most efficient way to release your stresses (besides a punching bag. God those things work like magic) and the easiest as well. I for one wouldn't mind if you came and talked to me. It's basically all I'm good for anymore, so feel free to hit me up on skype or something.

[Reckless]

Dude, your not a alone. I get many depression and angry that I have to cry myself to sleep.

I know how you feel. I swear it's easy for people to get me angry nowadays...and it's pissing me off.