I dunno.

[Ryan Naismith]

Sometimes, I get really sad. I just kinds do things, and that happens. Sure, it's probably depression. But like, when I go to actually talk to someone about it, I just can't can't explain WHY. And I just kinda mneh. I mean I dunno. I'm always second guessing myself, even when I was writing this. And I just don't know what to feel sometimes.

And I want to talk to people, I really do. I have several people that would listen to me, and I KNOW they wouldn't judge, including but not limited to my wonderful mate.
I just... forget. It's not like I know my feeling, but can't come up with the words, it's just me forgetting what I was sad about. Because really, that's how I operate. I just forget about things, hide in my video games, my RPs. And even then, I fall victim to depression and self doubt, especially when other humans are involved.

Generally, i just dont know what to do. And I HATE that feeling...

Sorry for my little incomprehensible vent, rant, or whatever. Thank you to anyone who reads it.

[Teiko]

I personally view depression as a sign of intelligence. It usually means they are very perceptive of the world around them, which, is pretty dark.

[George]

Just keep on keepin' on, man, this isn't super unusual and it does get better. This kind of thing tends to get worst in your teenage years, and fade over your twenties. The best thing for it is any sort of career, be it plumbing or skydiving instruction. Anything that gives you purpose.

[CrazyCat]

Just keep on keepin' on, man, this isn't super unusual and it does get better. This kind of thing tends to get worst in your teenage years, and fade over your twenties. The best thing for it is any sort of career, be it plumbing or skydiving instruction. Anything that gives you purpose.

Listen to this man.
You seem extremely bored with your life and while that may signal depression, it might be better to first find something else to do. Try new things with your life other than just staying at home playing video games or roleplaying. Just try anything new that draws your attention. It doesn't have to be a social activity, just do something else.
If that doesn't work and you start feeling worse, or start feeling hopeless/helpless, then see a doctor because that is definitely depression, and the sooner it's treated the better.

Post Merge: July 05, 2015, 07:50:22 PM

I personally view depression as a sign of intelligence. It usually means they are very perceptive of the world around them, which, is pretty dark.

As someone with depression, I disagree. From my experience, while depression allows you to clearly see all the bad things in the world it also makes you blind to all the great and beautiful things in the world, thus making life seem much darker and horrible than what it really is. Depression also warps your perception of yourself to an almost delusional degree. For example, whenever people complimented me, I immediately thought of them as spineless ass-kissing cowards who were afraid of telling the truth rather than thinking I had any sort of admirable qualities. So yeah, while depression does make you more perceptive of the evils of the world, it also prevents you from seeing any good anywhere, so rather than giving a more accurate view of the world, it gives you an overly dark and bleak view.