My blow outs were horrible too. Both barley escaped surgery, but it would be the best option if it goes out a third time. And even with that I'm leaning towards joining the Army, I'm nuts.
My first one was me going to say goodnight to mom's horse because she had blown out her ankle EXACTLY three months before. Second time I was tossing the football with my brother and friend. The stupid gophers all over the place did something to the ground and down I went.
But it does get better. Just last night I was out sprinting with one of my dogs through our field with no brace (dumb idea this soon after the injury, should wait a few more months) as we were trying to find a raccoon to kill. We got a rabbit at least
It was difficult for me, especially the first time. Feel free to message me if you ever need someone to talk to.