Zaida the name from thinking for what seemed like forever while using a temporary (gues you can say fake) Fursona I did not like.
Anywho chimera synx being a mysterious, creepy, alone, demented, parasitic, feral beast alien shows the negative part of me... Sadness, rage, greed, hatred, ect.
As for a ashvalian sergal is an alien living in a planet and social, intelligent, majestic, anthro showing the positive side of me... Joy,, protective, respectful, loving, soothing ect.
With the two mixed making Zaida and her emotions is how she acts and I admire the two species very very much. Made in a facility, a test subject shows corruption as being a goddess shows hope. (If that made sense)
Although this ain't the full thing, I just like to show a glimpse