Losing my head

[Valentina]

Enoji, I don't know what you're going through or why you feel this way... And i would hate to dis on others advice, but firstly Vinny's advice is wrong in my opinion you have to trust people and be a social person, it's what humans were born to do be social and without trust that means nothing. But like he said as well it's good to cry and let out your emotions once in awhile it's healthy but if you cry every day then you're just going to be sadder. Yena is right with food but you really don't want to live on a diet of chocolate and snacks, it's unhealthy and will just make you sadder over a longer period of time.


But Overall what I do to be happier, is I think positively, I wake up and imagine the most exciting part of my day and keep that in mind all day, I smile in the mirror because it has been proven smiling will make you happier. Be confident by walking into a room and imagining everyone loves you. And lastly speak to people that mean to you, without those that mean to you everything means nothing. Stay confident, stay positive and speak to those you love!
Hope this helps and hope you feel better

[Yena the Wolf]

MARKIPLIER IS YOUR BAE. USE HIM. HE'S PERFECT FOR ENTERTAINMENT.






I AM BATMAN.

[ENOJI Kengura]

sorry for a late reply you guys, but the reason i think is mainly because of my parents and them being kinda verbally abusive against me whenever their mad... but its also my grades, their not so well. and i feel extremely flustered on both things... when my parents are mad at something about me, they wont listen to my part, or let me explain my side. it happens alot...

[Yena the Wolf]

Retaliate. Do it. Even I would go off if someone did that to me.

[SirSteel]

sorry for a late reply you guys, but the reason i think is mainly because of my parents and them being kinda verbally abusive against me whenever their mad... but its also my grades, their not so well. and i feel extremely flustered on both things... when my parents are mad at something about me, they wont listen to my part, or let me explain my side. it happens alot...

I'm sorry to hear that, abusive parents are the worst. Especially when you're in your teens and it seems everything is an unfair disagreement on either side.

[ENOJI Kengura]

at one point, i called CPS, they did nothing. they just came, and we never heard from them ever again.

[SirSteel]

at one point, i called CPS, they did nothing. they just came, and we never heard from them ever again.

Did you try following up on their visit? Contacting them again? Is there anyone else you can contact/talk to?

If it's anything like the UK, organizations like that are useless and need to be hounded until they damn well listen to your problems 

[ENOJI Kengura]

I live in america, not really the land of the free and home of the brave... and unfortunately no. no one else i can talk to.

[Yena the Wolf]

What's a CPS?

[ENOJI Kengura]

CPS = Child Protective Services

[SirSteel]

Hmm :\ mind if I ask what your future plans are? Moving out? Further education?

Any friends you can hang with away from your parents? Or perhaps help each other study?

All I can say beyond that is just do your best, ignore your parents, as soon as you can then move out. No-one needs abusive parents.
If you need to vent there are loads of willing ears here to listen to you, myself included.

[ENOJI Kengura]

I plan to go to college and get a major in Music Production and maybe a minor in Graphic Design. I have a friend who is willing to help me out in case something happens. And for those who told me to try crying to help me, i really wish i could, but i dont have the time, nor the privacy...

[SirSteel]

Sounds like a good plan. Don't give up on it. Glad to hear you have some IRL friends to help you out too, that's good. College will be a good step, lots more freedom hopefully.

But yea, I guess if anything, getting away from your parents sounds like something to work towards.

Don't worry man, it'll all work out 

[Yena the Wolf]

Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free—
I'm

Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free
And

Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black
Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the light?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay, or should I go?
I've forgotten how to tell. Did I ever even know?
Can I take another step? I've done everything I can
All the people that I see I will never understand
If I find a way to change, if I step into the light
Then I'll never be the same and it all will fade to white




Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free—
I'm

Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free
And

Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black
If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?
I've forgotten how too see; I've forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away and it all would fade to black

Spoiler for Hidden:

agareteku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienaiwa sou shiranai?

Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake

Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no

Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru.

[ENOJI Kengura]

Sounds like a good plan. Don't give up on it. Glad to hear you have some IRL friends to help you out too, that's good. College will be a good step, lots more freedom hopefully.

But yea, I guess if anything, getting away from your parents sounds like something to work towards.

Don't worry man, it'll all work out 

thanks. ^^ currently im just trying to keep low, and get my grades up really high. my gpa (grade point average, which is what colleges look at) is actually a b right now. ^^