If someone refuses to see your good side it's their fault, not yours. Everyone does bad things and good things. They have no reasonable argument to judge you from what you did years ago. Everyone changes, especially over periods of years. If only 'good' persons deserve a second chance, what point is there in second chances?
Everyone gets an answer wrong every once in a while, everyone has some kind of pet peeve and everyone has their flaws. Nobody has the right to make fun of it in any way, especially not your teachers who are supposed to be HELPING you. You could tell people about what I just wrote down, but I doubt it'll help given your situation.
I've been bullied myself for almost 6 years without having any good friends, and it has turned me into a huge introvert. I rather have nobody around then being near any group I don't know. I first liked going to school, but on a long term it became so bad I just didn't want to go at all anymore. It's getting a bit better now I found a few people in my class who were actually protective towards me since the beginning of my study, but it took me 1.5 years before it crossed my mind I should try to befriend them.
This story made me pretty sad. If things are this bad, I'd personally go search for another school.
Thanks for your advice.
I have looked for another school many times, the thing is (I don't know if it's like this where you live), schools are organized into boundary lines; you can only transfer to a certain school if you live in the area. You can obviously see why this is a problem, I'm only 16 years old: I don't have the legal rights to drop everything and move.
Moreover, even in the theoretical case that I could move, I would be away from the few real friends that I have. But, this isn't much of a problem, I only see them in my lunch period. What I'm really worried about, is how much my grades would be **censor** up; they would either be partially transferred, or, abandoned entirely. But, these problems can be overcome, and honestly; I'll take the first opportunity I get to transfer out of this hellhole.
Something I forgot to mention in my previous rant, im also entrapped in the special-Ed program. This makes it harder for me to pick my classes and to get teachers to **censor** off for once; that's another pet peeve of mine. I hate it, when teachers hover over you, or, remind you of shit you're already doing, every 5 seconds. It gets ANNOYING, and when I try to stop it, the class laughs.
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So anyway, yeah, I'm definitely transferring out of here soon. And also, expect to see me on the forums more often; I go here a lot to chill out and relieve the overwhelming amount of stress I have.
I'm also working on covering the speech impediment with a fake accent, I already look British enough, so I just say "t'haych" sort of sound. You might say it's not a good solution, but what can I do, schools are past the point where they tell you how to properly say stuff, they assume you know most of the language.
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But there's one problem I can't fix, I'm still on the college plan. I'm determined to take a 2 year, if that means taking computer science instead of another class I'm forced to take. But no, everyone's like "think of your future, you could regret your decision later", like I'm **censor** 5 years old or some shit. I'm 16 YEARS OLD, just because I can't drive a car or pay taxes; doesn't mean I can't make a decision about my life. And to be honest, I'd rather spend 2 more years in college, I'd be with more mature and smarter people, and the teachers would actually teach me shit. Whereas in high school, it's pretty much glorified babysitting with pretentious pricks.
Oh, and did I mention? This school has nationalism to an unhealthy level. And the staff doesn't give a single **censor** about you unless you're a member of the football team.
Also, I'm a youtube content creator and this stress is hurting my channel, which honestly, I could make a living from, if I got more time to make videos and stuff.