Originally styxx. Was a manifestation of my inner demon. But I never really made him my sons until late last year, he is who I hope to become. As in brave enough to just throw himself into a group of people and join the convo and so on. Where as me, I am too alerted by groups of people working where the gun is going to be pointed or the knife/sword will be swung from... I know it doesn't happen where I currently am but when it happens enough you stay alerted.
But styxx is. Who I want to be in the future.