Gender identity issues

[MrRazot]

I think you need to do more research into hormones and their functions. Being a Eunuch does have some advantages, but I think they are largely outweighed by the fact that you'll probably end up living a much shorter life.

Men have Testosterone that helps to fight off the largely destructive hormone Oestrogen and it's effects. The way Women avoid the problems of Oestrogen, is by simply just having more of it. When a Woman gets old, they have less Oestrogen and can end up with all manner of cancers, memory difficulties, osteoporosis and straight up going senile.
The same kind of happens with Men who with age end up with declining levels of Testosterone and a slight rise in Oestrogen levels, also causing more problems.

If you want to be a Eunuch, you will have the advantage of being free from the controlling hormone Testosterone which very much so clouds judgement and action. Eunuchs have been, historically, kept in high seats as valued counsellors to kings and emperors. The Chinese emperor always had a Eunuch for guidance or governing as they did so without having their dick get in the way of thinking straight.

However the negatives outweigh the positives. Having no balls, you'll no longer have Testosterone fighting the Oestrogen and because you don't have ovaries, you won't have enough Oestrogen to keep you from it's negatives.
You will develop:
-Softer skin
-Some female secondary sex traits (gynecomastia)
-Hair that won't disappear
-Osteoporosis (the bones of your body basically turning into dust)
-Significantly higher risk of cancer
-Trouble keeping train of thought and possible memory issues

What I see in modern Eunuchs is that they end up back on hormones one way or another. Either Oestrogen or Testosterone. Women have also started taking more Oestrogen supplements post menopause, just to keep up the oestrogen levels as their bodies just don't make enough
If you really want to go without balls, I recommend accepting that you'll live a shorter life, or just going mtf. I guess in your case, the only real negative of hitting up the Oestrogen, is that you will still have the whole clouded judgement thing, but from the other gender