Warning, this is a long story.
Really everything started to piece together when I was seven and I first became aware of the existance of wolves and werewolves. I strove to draw wolves and master drawing/painting them-sadly I haven't completed this-and I found myself growing to love them more and more each day. As I grew more and more obsessed with wolves, I found myself venturing out more and more into the woods, avoiding being inside as much as possible. It's only been up until about 6 or 7 years ago that I truly began to act differently than I used to. Instead of obsessing over wolves and lycans, I began acting like one, in the manner of showing my teeth when I was angry, something I did often, and staring at the moon for long periods of time. About 2 years ago was when I first had thoughts of actually WANTING to howl or whimper at the moon, something that truly scared me. I believed that if people found out about my 'little secret' I would be shunned and pushed away. I still think of whimpering to the moon, but I try to avoid it because usually when I get the chance, there's always someone around or I would rather stare than whimper. Anywho, I became depressed for a short while. My mentality was 'Why couldn't I have been born a wolf?' But I soon got over it. I met a friend who was just as obsessed with animals as I was, though she loved tigers. She was in a similar situation with her 'tigerness' and we became close friends. This led to me recovering from my depression and I began the new mentality 'If I can't have a tail and ears, I'll imagine it.' This is self explanitory...Then one day while I was watching Animal Planet's 'Most Extreme' I watched a guy explain about his being a furry and I began to wonder about myself and others like me. I was in denial, thinking I was a freak or that something was wrong with my head. Then, believe it or not, it was the New Moon trailer that really made me think, 'Am I a furry?' I was in a denial the whole afternoon as I studied and read up, but by the end of the day, I had calmed my fears, knowing I probably was a furry, and joined FF. Now here I am, still trying to convince myself entierly about this whole furry thing...
Kinda long, I know, but it's an elaborate story and this goes back a LONG way. Like 10 years back long.